Yeah, I was kinda like that years ago.
Thing is, I wasn't originally trying to be different. I was just outcast and treated as a freak by others, so I figured I might as well embrace it, and went full freak for quite a few years. Eventually though I realised that what I do and how much effort I do or don't put in has no influence whatsoever on how people treat me... so I stopped trying... and nothing really changed.
You really don't get to choose for yourself whether or not you're different / unique... in general terms. It is just a product of the environment you find yourself in. And if you are, being treated like shit by pretty much everyone is the surest sign... because they are shit and they hate everyone who isn't.