yeah, i didnt want to get to in the weeds on it. just struck that same courd for me of the mc coming to terms with/finding out their irl life in Japan wasnt real
so im a spider so what spoilers: Kinda reminds me of the twist in so im a spider so what. Where the mc goes back to japan only to find out they were never really a student but a spider before
i wonder if she isnt actually dead but doing this as some way to break out of her shell, or maybe bonked her head, her family enabling a chuni fantasy and telling her she actually died. Like she is saying she is dead as some way to cope with something that happened