at least I have to say, wow, I thought it would just be a BL work of life's slips and with nice drawings but I have to say that it destroyed me in a good way. like Arima I also suffered from SA and although it is not something I am proud of to say it or admit it, I always felt that it excluded me from others not because I believed that it only happened to me but because I never heard that anyone had gone through it at such a level or magnitude, it made me feel weak, despicable and disgusting and it was not until long ago at 17 years old that I stopped trying to hurt myself or trying to end myself and although today I am trying to everything with professional help I cannot say that I did not have people supporting me and trying to help me always and although they are no longer with me I carry them in my soul, especially a friend in particular. His name was Enzo, at first I didn't like him because I thought he was just a superficial immature guy, sooner or later we became inseparable, there was nowhere he and I could be together and I have to say that I came to admire him too much but I also began to love him more than I could put into words, beyond any link and label that you can put on what each one knows as "love" I came to feel for him, I never confessed my feelings beyond because I knew he was straight but even so because of that I did not stop being there for him and continuing to be his friend, until August 19th I did not hear from him again. I thought he got mad at me or something but when I talked to his mother she gave me the news that he had passed away, I couldn't believe it at all and for a long time I blamed myself for his death, sooner or later I came to accept it in a certain way and live with it, this morning I saw a video recommending this manga without spoilers and when I finished reading it I was just about to write what I thought and now I read about the author's death, I almost collapsed in tears when I saw that it coincided with the day just a year after my friend, I have to say that thanks to Peyo for this work even though I can't read it anymore my thanks are fortuitous towards him for this work and for reminding me of the most important person to me to this day, I know I went on too much but I also don't have hopes that someone will read all this and that's okay, it's just an expression of how I felt with this manga, I loved it! thanks to Peyo and I just hope he's in a better place!