yeah, drop it. the mc personality is trash. the author is same as other mainstream harem isekai type shlt. in the world of hell, author trying to make a holy untouched broken yet still foolishly trying to be angel-human.
in this world, not everyone is worthy enough to be saved. not everyone have the right to live. some better be dead. i really despise this type of weak, half-ass, pushover type of personality. this is why the world topper was never these type of character. cuz these character, realistically are not worthy of being strongest, being leader, or even have glorious and bigger life. those who live a life with this personality is usually a loser, the only way you could save yourself is to let go yoursef from these type of cursed personality. it's just like kaneki ken in season 1. i really love when he was tortured, it really crush his brain and his delusional idealism of being okay as the one who's in pain. it makes him realize that it's just an excuse of his scared ass to hurt someone. in order to protect, one need a power. a knife to klll someone is not just for the sake of kllling someone, it's for raising up justice for your life, and to protect what you truly cherished for