My feelings after I fail : drawing , 3-d. modelling , creating music , learning theatre , Academic life , & in love :
P.s. :- It feels more like gambling than ‘ꜹing fun.
P.P.‑s. :- I don’t actually think what I wrote there , I ʆimply think It is a Nice analoguͤ as to ‘ow I am feeling would be perceived by an Independent observer or an Emotional person.
This is how I felt when I noticed that I planned My drawing to make Her lꝏking at left but then drew Her eyes lꝏking Bottom-left for no Appearant reason :
« 生と死は興味深い概念ね、一方で生きてる人たちが死んだ人たちを気にかけて、もう一方でそんな心配事から解放された人たちが見えるわ——私は両方を等しく哀れむよ、その間に立って。 ». « Life & death is an Interesting concept , [ I aſsume ] You know : on One ‘and people who are living caring about Them and on the Other hand the people who ‘ꜹe died No longer poſseß ʆuch worries — I Equally pity both , I stand betwixt of Them after all. »
Hilf dem vinde des lants , swaz dir behaget ; der dir hilfet , der ist din lant. Triuwe ist kunst ; sô sî dir seͤlbes man. Treitet in diu samunge der frîen herrenlôsen in iuwerem orte ; diu selben , die sich wol bedâhten , zersmieten den wahtaͤren daz knîe und nemen den rihtaͤren daz leben und begerent niht triuwe.
I've got a monster underneath my bed
And it's keeping me awake
Yeah, it's keeping me awake, oh
I've got a monster underneath my bed
And it's keeping me awake at night
The Personal urge to put a bullet in Every mohammadist’s ‘ead to make Them meet Their god 𝑣․ the ‘uman‑hatred in Me telling Me : « Don’t be a tyrant in Your New state , think about the optics — stꜽ liberal. » ⸺ life — & making choices — is ʆo hard.
†A mohammidst got Mine arm stuck betwixt a( n ) : Automatic dꝏr & column.
Creating good things takes time, experience and practice
You arent going to become an amazing artist in a week, a month or even a year
It might take decades
If you truly have passion, you will persevere
About academic and love life ... maybe its for the best?
Not everyone can experience everything