Fuck being responsible for what Ash did, I would just utter every swear and slur I know toward Ash. I would know i was responsible for it technically, but i would probably be in denial about it
It always bugs me when characters don't realize they're in a game. For fucks sake, you passed out playing the game and now your on a battlefield. You're (Japanese, Korean, Chinese) where manga or books like this are commonplace.