Aspe-chan - Ch. 15 - Asperger's and Self Esteem

[MangaDex]

 

[RC1138Boss]

Piece of shit teacher.

 

[ShayGuy]

And even in the extraordinary case that someone comes to realize they misjudged you, they don't apologize for the harm they caused you. Usually, they refuse to even believe they did damage. And if and when you come to understand, as an adult, just how much unjustly they treated you, how much harm they caused you with effects lasting to the present day, how angry you have a right to really be? You know that they will never be held accountable. They will never compensate you. And whatever happiness you may find in the future from the growth you achieve now, you have forever lost the childhood happiness you could've had, were it not for the apathetic, presumptuous, I'm-sure-this-kid-is-lying callousness of the adults around you.

*sigh*

 

[Duainfey]

I wonder if I'm undiagnosed Asperger's.

 

[Juliko]

Oh yes. I relate to this so much. Poor Aspe-chan was gaslighted here, with the teacher refusing to believe her and pretty much traumatized her for life. I don't have a lot of memories of this, but when I was younger, I was assigned one-to-one aids by my elementary school, but they were just local parents from the neighborhood instead of people who knew about autism. From what my mother told me, these two aides were quite cruel to me, often yelling at me a lot for seemingly no reason. My parents forced the school to change aides, and they did, but the cruelty continued. At one point, my mom threatened to call the police and take the school to court, and I did eventually get another, nicer aide. I remember her being Hispanic, but that's about it. I also remember she had a daughter who I think didn't like me, but again, I have very few memories. But yeah, it can really hurt when you know you're not doing something wrong, but people completely flip their shit at you and act like you did, blowing the situation out of proportion and subjecting you to verbal abuse that you didn't warrant or deserve. It doesn't help that mental illnesses such as autism aren't that well understood in Japan because of the country's draconian desire for conformity. I've heard that Japanese society doesn't even believe in mental illnesses, with anyone who's genuinely mentally ill being told that any problems they have are just because of their own personality flaws, that they're somehow assholes for not conforming to Japan's social standards, and that they need to stop whining and get their shit together so they don't inconvenience others. Yeah, it's stupid and shitty, I know.

 

[gevudan]

Still happens and they'll never understand. So sadly we have to adapt or just constantly get harassed like this.

 

[Wheres_polo]

My kindergarten teacher would yell and insult me saying I would never amount to anything just cause I couldn’t properly speak English felt horrible I always felt like I was wrong or stupid I still stutter my words to this day cause her...if I can find her grave I would dance on top of it

 

[Tsukinotaku]

@Wheres_polo call me when you find it, I'll join you and we'll make it a festival!

 

[2SpiritCherokeePrincess]

A teacher is just a child abuser who turned pro.

 

[pupkinpe]

When i was a small kid, i made a poem for class, and when the teacher read it she said it was too good to be written by a kid and that i was a liar and a thief and i would have to stand there until i apologized and admitted it and told her where i stole it. It was just small and silly, not my fault it was so good. So I stood there crying having done nothing wrong until the class ended and she couldn't keep me anymore or stay.
Even earlier, in 3rd grade, i really needed to pee, but i couldn't just go, and i couldn't even say anything, because the teacher was in the middle of teaching, so i was desperately but quietly raising my hand and wouldn't put it down, and the teacher just got madder and madder at me telling me to settle down and stuff and lower my hand so she could get back to teaching, until i peed my pants. My parents didn't take me out of that school or even that class after that either for reasons (apparently people were willing to bribe to have that class' english teacher). Well there went my social life, in grade 3 already.

Thanks, teachers without a clue