ah yes, the protagonist is saying normal cis guy things like "please let me wake up", "i hate this" and "why must you be so cruel, god" while having a normal cis guy moment in front of a mirror that every normal cis guy has ever now and then and isn't something experienced mainly by trans people with a certain name like perhaps "gender dysphoria". but that would be crazy as this is very clearly a cis guy who wasn't ecstatic because of thinking of being in a feminine body a moment before. clearly.