I Want to Love You Till Your Dying Day - Ch. 38.5 - To Waver

[MangaDex]

 

[sikachu]

As SomewhatOkayTranslations has been very busy with their life lately. From this chapter onward, I've asked them to let me take over the project. I'm going to team up with Cue from Cuetie Scans to continue the scanlation. We'll try our best to maintain the consistency of the translation, but please feel free to point out if there's anything you think we can improve.

With this extra chapter, this concludes volume 8. Japanese volume 8 will be released on March 17, 2025.

Edit: They just released the cover! It's from chapter 36

https://twitter.com/i/web/status/1887485189083087186

While we're working in the background, KODANSHA US has already have their English localization releases planned for every two months starting February, up to volume 5. You can pre-order your physical copy from your favorite book retailers near you. You can also view the preview of chapter 1 by visiting KODANSHA US's website.

If you like this chapter, be sure to visit https://ichijin-plus.com/episodes/184176254276403 and click on that GOOD! button on the last page. Your vote will help support this series and ensure that it keeps going.

With that, I think we'll probably going to have a new chapter in Japanese in March alongside the book release. Until then...

 

[Tablemill]

Thanks for the translation!

 

[wqytqqmqnyqs]

Someone hug Haru. Y'know what I'll do it myself. Gonna jump through this screen

 

[BluePhoenixcg]

It's not often you see a genuine exploration of gender in media, and even rather that it's this well done.

 

[Mashii52]

Peak fiction

 

[shemper]

It's not often you see a genuine exploration of gender in media, and even rather that it's this well done.

What you like doing or wearing has nothing to do with gender though?






Thank you for your work!

 

[Giftnova]

Grumpy GNC girl-king Haru, my beloved. You self-determine the fuck outta all that, go you!

 

[JustAnotherYuriLover]

Too relatable. I'm in my 30s and still trying to figure it all out. Good luck Haru!

 

[wqytqqmqnyqs]

Peak fiction

How is it fiction 💀

 

[itmealice]

aww such a sweet bonus chapter

 

[Mashii52]

How is it fiction 💀

fiction
noun

the type of book or story that is written about imaginary characters and events and not based on real people and fact.
(Cambridge Dictionary)

 

[peacegiant]

What you like doing or wearing has nothing to do with gender though?

Some girls want to wear boy clothes because they like boy clothes, and some girls want to wear boy clothes because they make them feel like a boy.

Whether or not what you like doing or wearing has anything to do with gender depends on why you're doing those things.

 

[shemper]

Some girls want to wear boy clothes because they like boy clothes, and some girls want to wear boy clothes because they make them feel like a boy.

Whether or not what you like doing or wearing has anything to do with gender depends on why you're doing those things.

I meant to say not everything is about gender, here it's explicitly said she started doing it (short hair) to piss off her parents (because she dislike her sister's skirts) and then it's implied it just became a habit, while her main question was about love.
edit: And I have to add, she was wondering if she wanted to be a boy not because she feels like one, but because she doesn't fit the stereotypes, so again the sources of her questions wasn't about gender, but about having different tastes

 

[OnewingedMasios]

I think this is the most perfect depiction of someone growing up and finding their own way in life I have ever seen in any media. It just feels so genuine right down to the
"what is it I like? Should I want what someone else wants? I do not feel particularly strongly towards that, but my friends have it. Would they shun me if I was different?"
That is something every kid experiences as they explore their life and eventually come to the answer only they themselves are capable of answering.

 

[peacegiant]

I meant to say not everything is about gender, here it's explicitly said she started doing it (short hair) to piss off her parents (because she dislike her sister's skirts) and then it's implied it just became a habit, while her main question was about love.

I'm not sure what you mean by "explicitly stated" - we don't get a direct reason why she cuts her hair, the panel implies she does it because she wants to make her own decisions and not be beholden to what her family wants her to be like. Nothing suggests it just "became a habit" either. She asks about love because she feels she can't understand it because she can't understand herself.

edit: And I have to add, she was wondering if she wanted to be a boy not because she feels like one, but because she doesn't fit the stereotypes, so again the sources of her questions wasn't about gender, but about having different tastes

She's wondering whether she wears boy clothes because she wants to be a boy. She's wondering if this has implications on her love life. She is explicitly questioning her gender identity. This isn't something exclusive to trans people - many cis people struggle with gender identity due to not fitting gender stereotypes.

She might conclude that she's just a girl who likes boy clothes and that liking boy clothes doesn't make her less of a girl, or that gender simply doesn't matter to her, or that she does want to be a boy after all. Regardless of why she's having these thoughts or where they'll lead her, this is absolutely about gender.

 

[onesmolbean]

She's wondering whether she wears boy clothes because she wants to be a boy. She's wondering if this has implications on her love life. She is explicitly questioning her gender identity. This isn't something exclusive to trans people - many cis people struggle with gender identity due to not fitting gender stereotypes.

I just want to say this is why I feel so seen by Haru and this extra chapter in particular. There’s so much nuance here and to say it has nothing to do with gender would really do Haru and the brilliant writing a great disservice.

That question of “am I wearing boy clothes because I want to be a boy?” and that relating to her struggles with understanding who she is, with wondering what gender her partner would be if she had one… it’s so reminiscent of struggles and ponderings that so many people (cis people included, as you pointed out) go through, simply because gender and one’s relationship to it can be so messy and so complicated and yet so simple, all at the same time. It’s so so real and raw and intensely touching.

And I want to point out that while Haru’s initial question to the teacher is about love, the teacher sees this for what it really is (seriously beautiful and heartfelt writing here), and simply tells her to take her time figuring herself out, finding herself… with the reassurance that those that she cares for will always willingly give her that time.

That affirmation is so important, and I’d argue that if this weren’t about gender, that teacher would have given a different response entirely.

Anyway, wow I love this manga so much.

 

[igenetycs]

Every time there's a new chapter my love for this series is reaffirmed. Great work as always.

 

[LunaLyna]

I meant to say not everything is about gender, here it's explicitly said she started doing it (short hair) to piss off her parents (because she dislike her sister's skirts) and then it's implied it just became a habit, while her main question was about love.
edit: And I have to add, she was wondering if she wanted to be a boy not because she feels like one, but because she doesn't fit the stereotypes, so again the sources of her questions wasn't about gender, but about having different tastes

And also cause they feel more comfortable presenting in masculine ways. Gender identity and presentation have never been smfh compleatly separated and idk why you are trying so hard to go against the trans coding of a character in a FRICKING QUEER STORY

 

[safsadfsdfdsa]

this is peak