Man Ari I wish the best too you, I prey you find great Yuri to fill the hole in your heart, not a replacement, but to make it easier for you...
This may sound insensitive but uh, if she's lost her lover as well, why's doesn't she seems as effected? Perhaps I missed it or maybe she just doesn't feel the loss as much anymore but it was odd seeing her talk about such with a smile on her face, I'm looking to into this, she's probably just reminiscing on the find memories
Have a nice day