Itsuka Fukushuu Suru Sono Tame ni - Ch. 43 - A bully who wound up falling for the one they bullied.

[DivyamJoshi18]

Atp, this is ragebait
I know it is hard to learn and move on but there is a limit

 

[nxneil13]

ISTG the end of this story is that they leave a note at each other's house giving a final apology and i love you and both of them will miraculously end up at the train station without either of them conviently seeing each other until they're about to board the train lol

 

[Edrikhtg]

Atp, this is ragebait
I know it is hard to learn and move on but there is a limit

I'm not here for bragging but saying this shit is ragebaiting or "it's just dragging story now" crowd have no a slightest idea how self-loathing works.

As a professional self-hating self-loather, this is what it feels like; a continuous looping of constant hell of never being able to love yourself or accepting good things do come your way at times and you deserve that. It doesn't feel nice, it doesn't feel good at all. It's a constant pain every day thinking you should be punished or even erased because of the one thing/many things you did to yourself in the past. Then you also think whether you should "atone" or "make up" all the mistakes/wrong doings by being basically altruistic and degrading yourself, in the name of "atonement".

It sucks. It's endless, and hopeless. You could be the most normal person ever who never thought anything harmful to yourself at first, but when you're in constant shitfest for almost half of your lifetime, things are starting to make sense and even romanticizing the idea where you'd think it's gonna be a quick relief and all. "It'll be over", one might think. "Everyone will mourn for the first 3-4 months and will forget me anyways". "The world will keep spinning, i'm not matter". Lemme tell you rn, these thoughts sucks ass but one simply cannot just ignore them since they have some level of truth. Even when you have help, you can't shake the thoughts of guilt and not worthy for it. It fucking sucks, living like this genuinely fucking sucks.


All in all, i just wanna say self-loathing is a serious issue. It could lead to a lot of things, self inflict death is just one of them. You can't just expect them to get helped in a way and have them feeling okay in a short time. That's not how it works. It could take years, decades even. And the only thing that's most effective to help them is to have someone who always keeping up with their bs, which is hella rare to find someone like that especially in this economy.

Anyways, sorry for the long rant. I just wanna get this out since i'm kinda quite expert in this subject so yeah...

Thank you for the chapter and have a good one o/

 

[NoodlesNomm]

Whatever bro

 

[PythiaTheLiar]

Relapse arc WOOOOO!!! Let's milk this for at least FIFTY MOAR PAGES!

 

[jojoka]

Clearly he needs to slap her again

 

[Ungrave]

Come on girl, don't disappear from his life, he'll be extra sad!

Oh there are definitely ways to just support someone long enough until they find more permanent happiness and then dip out

 

[dnlpro11]

It's getting tiring author, all we see is rope pulling back and forth with no progress

 

[camlakorns]

this dont look good