The Professor Who Reads Love Stories - Ch. 47

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Notes about Professor (Wall of text)
When first meeting his wife, he was attracted by her isolation and projected his childhood trauma on her and tried to make it better.
Before that, he was just going about his life emptily, but now made it his life goal to fulfill his wife's wishes, unlike how he never got the love he wanted from his family.
He thought he had power over her emotions by curing her traumas and making her dependent on him. Ironically, he began to be dependent on her instead.
In that environment, where their families didn't approve of them, professor tried to protect her by giving in to any of her desires, but it wasn't good for her mental health. His wife needed someone to tell her when to get help, and when she asked him to not help her, he stopped. This wasn't a time when mental illness was treated as a good thing and societal pressure mage him give in to her demands.
Professor feels guilty for this after she died because he is able to self reflect to an extent, but he runs away from it. He doesn't try to find support to vent his emotions so blocking it from his life is the only way he copes.
He hides his failure to cure his wife, and knows his arrogance in trying to do so, but doesn't want to have his children know about it.
His wife's writings while declining in her mental health were too dark for his children to read, but even after they are grown up enough to understand his wife's state of mind, he puts off confrontation.
Professor should know that his daughter's orientation was not caused on the lack of a mother figure, but his insecurities of raising his children alone clouded his mind ending up with his hurtful words.
Concluding flaws: arrogance in his virtue (both in helping wife and daughter), inaction when noticing clear dangers in his wife's health, selfish escaping from problems. He is better than most his age with respecting others, but he ends at that, and doesn't try enough to further his understanding of others.
 

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