I can only reinforce how fucking much it must suck to put your everything into a craft, yevote your whole life that youve spent in misery into it, only to be easily beaten in a short span of time by a person who seemingly doesnt even try.
Having the goal youre passionate to the point lf obsession about being taken by someone who appars overall ambivalent would drive me mad, even if said person was on their deathbed.
Perhaps especially if they are on their deathbed cause you know what people will say after she passes. "Oh, while meiko was active she could never beat, only now that shes dead she can be number 1".
That would follow her for her entire career, a hollow victory, unable to ever truly achieve your dream.
Thanks for the chapter!