The prince was suffering from profound loneliness? That's the excuse for his behavior? She was too in her first life? That's her excuse? Really? Participating in the Prince's inner circle and being his royal cockhouse was out of loneliness?
Did the author forget the beginning where she said everyone loved her as a cute child so she became selfish lookist who did whatever she wanted in her first life? Couldn't think of a better reason for her to still feel uneasy like the state secrets that got her hanged?
I'm not really sure how to feel about this. She was in the wrong in her first life, no doubt about it, but would she have walked that path had he not been a jerk?
We don't really know why he was a jerk, but I feel like the fact he was popping up at tea parties as a girl and being bullied was an implication that MC bullied him too in her first life.
Anyways, she probably would have walked to her death regardless. There's no way she wouldn't have friction with him because of her established selfish personality.
you'd think she would have at least kept some of her scheming personality or knowledge from her first life, how did she end up so monumentally helpless in the second?
Scheming? Knowledge? She was just something the prince bounced on his waist that happened to learn state secrets and accidentally leak them. She didn't start studying seriously until her second life.
Who knows why she doesn't have at least a guard or two and some servants while at the orphanage though.