Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 45 - Wandering Through The Night

[Mangamoz]

How predictable.

 

[BobSmegdorf]

My monthly crystal meth shipment has arrived god bless

 

[justformangatoo]

More Hikari and less baggage girl scene plz

 

[EchoGirl]

I guess it's good those guys backed off but you'd think she'd be reported for wandering around past curfew considering how strict some schools are but i guess she is the school's 'outcast/delinquent'

And isn't her mom like, dying...? or i guess just sickly and in an extended hospital stay. I mean, i admit i'm not that close with my mother but i'd prolly not care about friends/romance drama and try to find a job to save up/pay for the hospital bills and all (although it shouldn't be a kids responsibility to pay for their parents like that but still [wonder if she qualifies for welfare living alone.])

 

[story645]

At this point, I want her to run into both Yuu and Hikari and start the healing process because I'm so done with this woe is me Yami bullshit.

That's why I don't want Yuu and Hikari to find her. I don't want her to "be saved" I want her to grow up a bit and own what she's done and make the proactive move to repair the relationships. Like I'd love more backstory but I wonder if that's why her middle school friends are so done w/ her.

The novel I think even more emphasizes her lack of taking ownership:

Classes at school, chatting with friends, going out on weekends—student things…
No, just normal, human things like that—
All of those have been removed from my life.

Which to be fair, I'm maybe wrong and the passive voice is just a translation quirk.

She is just wandering around, but she is ready to vent her frustrations at anyone who approaches her.

There's a bit of self destruction there:

All I’m doing is provoking people, angering them—
Playing a game of chicken with myself, wondering when I’m finally going to screw up.
When I’m going to destroy myself.

 

[HellJester]

I guess it's good those guys backed off but you'd think she'd be reported for wandering around past curfew considering how strict some schools are but i guess she is the school's 'outcast/delinquent'

And isn't her mom like, dying...? or i guess just sickly and in an extended hospital stay. I mean, i admit i'm not that close with my mother but i'd prolly not care about friends/romance drama and try to find a job to save up/pay for the hospital bills and all (although it shouldn't be a kids responsibility to pay for their parents like that but still [wonder if she qualifies for welfare living alone.])

Yami isn't going to school so I doubt her school would care if someone did report her.

Her mom isn't dying, she's recovering from a suicide attempt. The mom is well enough to argue with Yami every night according to Yami's thoughts in this chapter. Also, her mother and her apparently have a ton of money from the step father divorcing the mom.

That's not the goal. She is just wandering around, but she is ready to vent her frustrations at anyone who approaches her.

My translation of the chapter might not be 100% accurate but it gave me the following:

All I’m doing is provoking people, angering them—
Playing a game of chicken with myself, wondering when I’m finally going to screw up.
When I’m going to destroy myself.
Doing this crap every day, of course there’ve been times someone tried to hit me.
Times someone tried to drag me somewhere dark.

When that happens, I bite them as hard as I can, or grab a rock and swing it—
Barely escaping by a hair’s breadth.

Which means tomorrow—or hell, even right now—
There’s every possibility I get beaten to a pulp or messed up beyond repair.

But so what…?
Yeah…
This is my routine now.

Pathetic, awful, ugly—
This way of living… I repeat it every single day.

 

[Alsavarolltime]

Just die on the street already bitch

 

[HellJester]

That's another problem I have with this whole thing - with the shortening of the manga chapters a lot of what's shown in the novel is just left out. So if all you do is read the manga, it looks like Yami is having a temper tantrum and just lashing out but if you read the novel it's clear that Yami wants to self destruct.

 

[EchoGirl]

Her mom isn't dying, she's recovering from a suicide attempt. The mom is well enough to argue with Yami every night according to Yami's thoughts in this chapter. Also, her mother and her apparently have a ton of money from the step father divorcing the mom.

I see...you'd think she'd 'calm down' after a suicide attempt/not have it in her to keep arguing with her daughter (doesn't mean she'd get money from her tho other than minimum living expenses) but also surprised the other two didn't see her just showing up outside their houses if it happens often even if they'd be asleep or other ppl seeing (be awkward if their ring camera caught it but i guess she didn't go to their front steps)

 

[epicfail48]

So if all you do is read the manga, it looks like Yami is having a temper tantrum and just lashing out but if you read the novel it's clear that Yami wants to self destruct.

Pretty much the same thing tbh

 

[iamsean]

Mangaka, its okay to admit you clearly lost the plot pacing... wtf is this for a monthly release we got a .5 chapter side quest. The crash out has occured already so this feels right to put on the on hold list until its another 6 months or 6 half arsed chapters to catch up on. To the chapter, the girl needs help, not more playing house. Frankly they all need new scenery lol.

 

[Mangamoz]

That's another problem I have with this whole thing - with the shortening of the manga chapters a lot of what's shown in the novel is just left out. So if all you do is read the manga, it looks like Yami is having a temper tantrum and just lashing out but if you read the novel it's clear that Yami wants to self destruct.

Yep, this somehow become a novel ad manga.
Wanna see the full context? Read the novel bitches.

 

[story645]

You'd think she'd 'calm down' after a suicide attempt/not have it in her to keep arguing with her daughter

Her mom has been written as the sterotypical bad manga mom - self absorbed, neglectful, dives hard into romantic relationships where she gets all clingy. Like fighting w/ her daughter is probably the distraction for being single.

To the chapter, the girl needs help, not more playing house.

Yeah it's very not healthy that it seems like her only real attachments are to people who she sees as her savior and rescuer.

 

[dacraziguy]

So, I guess that this is it... clearly after all this time following the manga seems kinda pointless, it's starting to be hard to follow and obvious that info is missing. I guess I'll check the novel in the future.

 

[Kaito57]

Author : Yami is really hurt and regret her actions !

Everybody :

 

[HellJester]

I like the fact that those two guys are so desperate to pick Yami up (I mean look how rough she looks) that they willing stand there and listen to her tell them the whole plot of this manga. They even start making comments about it.

I do like the little insight we get from Yami that she still holds Yuu and Hikari in high regards and mentions they aren't at fault for what's happened.

Yami simps in shambles as their oshi willingly admits she's the cause of all the problems.

 

[Kromwulf]

Yeaaaahhh yami is suffering and I'm all here for it!

 

[HYBRID_BEING]

@vipguy64
There's "at our the store" on the first page.

 

[jbwhy]

Oh my god shes so hot

 

[ActuallyArma]

I've put a pause on reading this for so long now in hopes the powder keg that was the festival died down by now.

Judging from the comments it still hasn't and probably won't for a while, will it?