She's not even denying it to herself anymore. She likes him a buuuunch. She's actively kicking him to maintain her position as the bully type, making sure that both he and herself are aware of the dynamic that she's comfortable with. Because being in love means being vulnerable and that's...
@heyitsdan You realize dakimakura have two sides right
You flip over from the wholesome side to the less wholesome or alternative side as needed
... I kinda want one.
I appreciate the later realization that she was going without a bra and then thinking "oh I'm sure it's fine, he only saw me in my hoodie"
Without realizing her EARLIER blunder
Very realistic chain of events