Reminds me of 'A Story of a Cannon Fodder who Firmly Believed He was the Protagonist' where the MC was reincarnated into a mob and made to believe he's the mc for the entertainment of the gods watching him. Also to a lesser extent
Yeah, for me it reads as though she might have a bit of a crush on Jiang He and is sad she never had a chance. Perhaps she shouldn't just limit herself to looking for a 'boy'friend