This is my second time reading this. It's truly painful mostly because characters pains feel so real. It shows how cruel and brutal the world actually is in my opinion. What I really don't like about it is that people who shouldn't have been forgiven were forgiven but those who only did wrong doings because they were pushed into it was not forgiven. What I know for sure is that loving someone is never a waste and we should love knowing that love and pain come together. Pain isn't always a bad thing when you look at it. That pain you feel from falling in love, especially, is the sweetest pain one can feel. We are born to an ending world where nothing is permanent, we know that everything will end when the right time comes so I don't understand why we are still so afraid of the end. I think what Jeremy needed to know was that even if the people you love are no longer in your life, the warm and loving feelings will forever linger in your heart and missing them will keep them alive right beside you forever. Loving has never been a sin and will always be that way. We were born to live, not to die. However scary that love sounds or seems you need it to live. There are things worse than death and Jeremy has experienced that. I wish that Ian could also know that loving someone doesn't always have to be shown in an active way. For people like Jeremy need a passive love that is slow. Anyway I wish I could talk with the creator just to ask what their future together would be like-- Would they be able to love each other? Would Jeremy forgive himself? Would he accept the love that others offer him? Ah just wish I could know.