This was a painful reminder of my lost cats. I actually had to take some strong meds to deal with my depression after they died. That is how hard it was for me. It was like I had lost my children. I never want to go through that pain again, and even if I have two cats nowadays and I know they will eventually pass away, my lost kittens will never ever be replaced. They were unique, and I will always love them.
Sorry. It just hurts to remember even after all the time it has passed since then. I hope they are in peace, I really do.