I read this webtoon cause its realistic as @$%# but damn this chapter be like calling me out directly. How am I supposed to deal with Sujeong not being the FL now
I understand the she had circumstances that lead to her being like this and it really is tragic.... but the rational part of my brain can't stop thinking that she brought it on herself by never acknowledging what she was doing wrong, and becoming more obsessive. The snowball effect is vicious on those who never try to become emotionally stronger.
Warning Dark stuff under here
I have a friend who had several girlfriends who basically used him for suicide prevention. I know that depression is a very serious thing, and being there for that person is really important, but it takes a real toll on the people who are kind enough to do it. I got to see first hand the stress and panic that suddenly having another person's life in your hands set in on a really close friend. In that moment they don't regard or take care of themselves as much, and it becomes a vicious cycle. He used to tell me that he didn't get sleep for a whole night because he was on call with them all night calming them down or keeping them company. It didn't matter that he was already swamped with work from advanced classes, working on his personal projects, and taking care of his baby niece at home.
I know its really important to deal with mental health but when you are on the receiving end of the emotions/feelings/depression, it is so suffocating and depressing too. I've been with my ex for 3 years and he is a depressed person (work/family issues). Although I tried to be with him and support him, he keeps wanting more and more. He goes crazy if I don't reply to a text soon or I don't pickup his call (even tho I'm in the public transpo). I even sacrifice my sleep to comfort him on late nights. I can't work properly because I need to comfort him while he is working. If I initiate a breakup, he goes crazy and says suicide. It so unhealthy, I became so depressed that I also wanted to die. He keeps on saying as long as I'm around, he doesn't need anyone else (even his family). I'm so glad I was able to break away but until this day he occasionally calls or text me which I always ignore and block. Up until this day, I really don't know the solution (I think seek medical help is really helpful but my ex wont do it too).
Just my two cents as a person who is prone to depression and thought about killing himself.
Depression sucks. You lack the will to do anything, seriously anything. Sometimes if I didn't have something take doesn't need to be cooked to eat, I would postpone eating for hours and might push lunch until the next day, because I don't want to prepare food (and I'm too broke to always buy delivery food.) It's quite easy to really neglect yourself, but I do think that in the end it's your responsability to take care of yourself. Lucifer should have set some boundaries when he started to notice she was becoming too dependant on him and she should have known that the only person you can depend at any moment is yourself... (in this spoiler might be something that could trigger people that are suicidal, so if a mod thinks it's necessary, delete the spoiler)
but when you are really depressed giving up seems a lot easier (and I believe it is indeed easier, but where is the fun in that?) You have already lived x amount of years, be proud of that. No one and nothing in this world wants you to live, but you lived anyways, so you defied them all and lived on. Be proud of that. Living isn't easy and the fact that you have made it this far means that you are strong.
So while I understand why Lucifer wanted to distance himself, I can't really fault Peach. It's her fault for not dealing with her problems sooner and only looking to treat her symptoms instead of slowly fixing all her issues. Your shit mother wants to leech off of you when she didn't even do something for you in your whole life? Tell her to fuck off and maybe make a public statement, before she goes and says you are an unfilial daughter. The photographer is a pervert? Start looking for friends and try to get them to film the way he interacts with you during a photoshoot. If you can't get friends, at least record the audio yourself.
What I can't truly understand, because that's simply not the way I am, is how possesive Peach was. Like, I know Lucifer was basically her Lord and saviour, but I feel bad being dependant on people and don't want people depending too much on me. In the end you are responsible for your own life, so deal with your stuff yourself. I can help you out, but I won't become your parent.
Anyways, I don't think anyone was at fault here. Peach had her problems that she could have fixed before, but fixing core issues with yourself is pretty hard. Lucifer, like me, didn't want someone to be so dependant on them and it's understandable (he's still an idiot though )