man, i really can't making this to my sense. like, she is different from who you know before. if it's me, i can't feel anything other than dark feeling like hatred, anger, agony, etc. because she is became different person by other dude. i just can't accept that, all thing that i can thinking of is just she is just making me her personal walking wallet for her family. just thinking logically. in the past, she ditch you. and then now she is easily doing sex with you. if she can do it easily with a person who she was ditched before, i bet she can do it with anyone in the street. all the thing that i can feel is just dark emotion from this chance of future. sorry man, but i'm never expecting so optimistic in my life. because nothing good come from it. i'd rather expecting and calculating the most worse case scenario in my life so that i can thinking the way out of it or way to prevent it.