Yet another Oshimi hit.. It captures very well the feelings regarding childhood, the times in the past where compassion and understanding where so important. Wishing you could go back, and feeling guilt or sadness because of the compassion that you were not able to give because you did not understand. The cruelty you may have contributed to because you did not understand. It's like a roadblock. "If only my mind were as it is now back then..." So that as children we could truly help one another. It's useless to look back that way though. Its useless because how much love and compassion can be accepted in the world of us as children? Maybe childhood is just the same way that adults are. It's a cycle of plague upon plague and the children will not understand nor do the adults. That's why we should treat all children as if we were looking kindly upon our childhood selves. I am a bit nervous around children though and only do my best in a nervous state. Lol. Of all people I am tempted to harm things weaker than me or to give in to those feelings, but I learn from my heart that is like the compassion and suffering in this manga that it will all pass. Yay Oshimi yay
I agree, we should all have some more compassion, especially towards ourselves. As you mentioned, it’s easy to look back at our past actions as children and harshly criticize ourselves, and I understand why. Childhood is a very crucial stage in everybody’s lives, getting bullied or mistreated tends to have a massive effect on your behavior and self esteem. I’m sure Oshimi feels like he could have done more to prevent the outcome of Hiromi getting arrested for assault- not by being a better friend, since he wasn’t very fond of him, but just treating him nicer overall. I won’t say every kid is selfish, because that’s simply not the case, but most kids feel like they need to do anything they can to avoid righteous punishment. They would rather throw someone innocent under the bus, similar to what Oshimi did by lying about who drew on the paper, than admit their wrongdoings. I find it interesting how he latched onto everybody else’s accusations. It’s very clear that he didn’t want to, so I wonder what he would have done if he were amongst the first students to be called. Regardless, he shouldn’t have followed along, but it’s nothing he can change now. Hopefully as he’s come to realize these things as an adult, he’s able to have a proper conversation with Hiromi. A heart to heart that won’t be interrupted. I feel like Hiromi won’t even remember the specific instance it it were to be brought up, given how troublesome his life is altogether, but it’d be nice for them to catch up in general. This manga actually reminded me of something I experienced in elementary school myself. We were doing an activity that involved getting every students signatures on our crafts, and when my paper was passed to one of my classmates, I refused for him to write on it. I didn’t want to say why because I knew it was wrong and offensive, but the teachers forced it out of me, and I told them it was because I felt like his handwriting would ruin it. Of course, my teacher scolded me, and my classmate seemed visibly sad. I noticed he tried especially hard to write neatly because he took longer than usual to write. My situation is not as extreme, but I still feel bad about it even now. Actually, maybe if his handwriting wasn’t so ass, this wouldn’t have happened. I hope he’s a master at calligraphy by now because good lord it was ugly.