I read all this hoping the girl would stop being in denial, but no. (Ch 73 atm)
I can't keep reading this. The girl wants the guy to love her, but to him she'll just be his idol, nothing more, she knows she loves him, but she won't because of her career, which is perfectly valid, but for that reason it's better not to get involved with him, they only hurt each other.
The girl is actually in a terrible denial and is just dragging the protagonist into her selfishness and her self-pity.
They don't deserve each other, they deserve better, but not from each other.