You know morality built solely off of law is pretty damn fragile and I'm sure people who don't care won't care. So I'll say; you know, I agree that draw pedo shit isn't irl pedo shit. That is indeed a true fact. You can tell by how entirely unrealistic, how different of a plane of existence, stuff such as lolicon, shotacon, and that special word for "attracted to teenagers but still a pedophile" that this falls under. In particular, usually we associate teenage girls with being inexperienced, naive, non-judgemental, etc.
But like...ok so you enjoy living in this dream? A dream of...a teenage girl marrying you and I assume doing whatever you want, cooking for you, doing dishes, sex, etc. Someone utterly devoted to you? Someone utterly docile? You know for reasons entirely unrelated to pedophilla if that is you that is really sad. You could be going out there into the real world full of wonder and excitement and people who are hopefully on the same level of intelligence and maturity as you, and your dream is to be a partner to someone so vulnerable and naive that they would never leave. Incredible; so subversive; this has definitely not been the plan of a good chunk of men for the entirety of history.
I have been in a mental headspace like this; that said I never wanted to date a High School student except for when I also was a High School Student, but nevertheless. I'm not sure if I can call whatever this "dream" or "fantasy" is anything but a nightmare disguised as something comforting.