@aeonnn Firstly, you know how 13 year old girls think that Billie Eilish so unique and edgy and deep? I'm just above that at 16. I know jack squat about life. I am like really dumb. I don't know how historical women got babies at my age. I can barely keep myself alive, much less another human being. I'm learning independence and all that but it's really slow and I'm still really immature. I just turned 16 you see so age is on my mind a lot. I thought I'd be smarter at this age, but I'm really not. ANYWAYS. As I was saying.
However, I just want to say, I know several people that are like you. Lots of 16 year old boys are really depressed - that I know. I'm glad that you felt good (even if it was only a little bit) for talking to me. I am not close to having it all together but I know that love from friends and family helps. Maintaining a romantic relationship when you are mentally unstable is really....not good. Idk, most people that are depressed find comfort in confiding with a friend, even if they are not a traditional friend. Human beings are social creatures and something as simple as interactions really alleviate a lot of one's problems - but not all. I really hate when guys believe that having a girlfriend would fix all their problems. They have to fix themselves first, and you get closer to that point with a friend than a girlfriend.
And I get that you don't wanna plague people with your problems, and I feel the same way whenever my anxiety acts up. Just talk to people. It doesn't have to be about your problems. Just being around people helps. I hope I'm not being preachy. I'm dumb and 16 so you really shouldn't trust my words. I just ...hope that you will stop saying that you don't have any friends soon.