So in order to not love, it is important to become Fujoshi/Fudanshi.
Well, I am fudanshi, and somehow I cant even have male friends, everytime I with them, all in my mind are yaoi, I feel some of them can read the lustful imagination in my eyes
)))))))))))))))))). Sometime, I wish to be female (to be like Satoko sensei, can do whatever pervert things to boys, only get back are their embarrassment. Well, or I can be Drag queen in Japan/Korean or some western countries to freely expose my love to BL things)
And for a girl, I cant even make myself to like someone. Well, part of reason of my mother don't want me to have girlfriend (lover) before 33 (now 24). another part is my parents is not lovey dovey at all, they are in cold war for most 10 years, and for my sake, they don't divorce (Well, I also don't really want them to divorce too, since they are in cold war because of Money problem, so when they divorce, this problem gonna explode like Atom bomb)
At this rate, I gonna be a wizard or sage at age of 30, since I still a virgin. I do try to lose my virgin but may be since I am loveless for too long, I cant even react to real person (well, the part of losing virgin is D into hole, but kind of hard to have a boner, mann, I wish a wizard is real)