I'm glad I kept on reading despite the rough start. I honestly thought it wad too way too much emphasizing her disbelief for 5 whole chapters like that, but I guess I can forgive it since it directly had a massive time skip. For now it's okay but I'm not sure if it can keep this up without suddenly having bad pacing again. Nevertheless, I feel like it's all worth it. I don't know what to call this feeling but it's definitely something I don't get to see a lot and it's very effective to me. Should I call it existential depression or something? Regardless, just this feeling alone is very unique and I feel like when rating something, making me feel moved should be commended. There's kinda the cliche where the MC-side character suddenly forms a harem of the protagonists but the existential dread hanging over it gives a whole new layer to it, it feels very meta to an already meta premise. I'd say good job, 8/10. I'd definitely read more of this. Can't lie, I teared up a bit.