Ok, I found this premise interesting but I can't stand this FL's actions these last 2 chapters, and her internal monologue is killing my brain cells. All of your actions are OBVIOUSLY leading in OBVIOUS directions and you're confused by it. Like, I get the point of the "misunderstanding" between her and everyone else, and that's fine to a degree, but you can literally just fucking write that you WANT to die but nah, can't have that.
All right, rant over, just gonna quit while I have sanity.