With this chapter it's made absolutely, crystal clear that Sayaka just wanted what was best for Kurumi and genuinely cared for her and her wishes.
I still wonder where Kurumis message about not trusting Sayaka in her book that set the whole story off came from, the other sus stuff Sayaka did then has already been answered, but that one still hasn't been
Due to the memory loss stuff it could be almost anything. It could have been finding the body outside, seeing Sayaka doing one of her sus things. It could have been written in one of the earlier days of the memory loss problem, before Sayaka learned how to best ease Kurumi into the situation. Like, theoretically, the first time this would have happened Sayaka would have found Kurumi unconscious over the professor's body. She would have tried to wake her up with tons of questions before realizing that Kurumi had been sent back to the night before the accident. Anything over the next few days would have been likely enough to make Kurumi not trust Sayaka. Or any other misunderstanding on her part over the next 4 years.
I feel like if she didnโt have the memory of someone who loved her erased she might not have fallen in with bad bfs and cheating. Removing both the biggest love and biggest pain in her life doesnโt seem to have improved her life at all. She got a warped version of what she wished for as a kid, but itโs hasnโt come close to surpassing what she lost.
I read all that was posted so far in one day and then looked at the news and see Jane Goodall passed away. Almost too on the nose.
Hikari choosing to erase her painful memories of Kurumi while Sayaka chooses not to forget unable to free herself from the pain if she wishes Kurumi will wake up is pure brilliance by the author.
I think this is where Sayaka realizes that if she ever wants to attain that happiness of being together with Kurumi, she alone must carry the burden of knowing the truth.
This story has broken me emotionally in ways I was not prepared for. Consuming all of this in 2 days may not have been the smartest idea. It has eaten away at my thoughts, and the fact I am now just waiting desperately for more will haunt me for awhile. Fantastic story, and I'm going to be anxiously waiting for more.