—My Dear Mother, Julie I heard that I have made you worry this whole time. If possible I would like to, not with a video like this, meet you, embrace you, and apologize.
—With all my heart I want to apologize. Not for not contacting you for 5 years, but for misunderstanding you, and Father—...
For noticing that for the first time only now—...
you patiently waited for me killing the impulse to come see me, just intently, and entirely for my sake...—...
and yet I misunderstood that—...
Since there was no contact from you I was disappointed, and had been abandoned by you, or so... I thought... For my own protection, I selfishly left home and I selfishly started acting another person
—However, even though I'm like that you both tucked me in and protected me—
—...With all my heart I thank you...—... for your deep love...—..
—...If I call you like I used to when I was a child it seems like all the things I have built up until now will break apart, so I won't be able to the way I used to yet, but I will certainly come back to you two by my own power. When that time comes let me call you properly.
—Lastly to my respectable father—...
Actually, this time around, at work, I will be playing the role of a coldblooded murderer.
—to be honest it's a role that I would've never wanted to do and I was troubled, but
—I decided that I wouldn't run away anymore —...
—To hurt people...—...
Even if that is just acting, whether I will be able to go through with that or not is a gamble, but I think that this is a trial from God, that I have to go through, so I will give it my all and fight believing in my own possibilities—...
