Oh god this is reminding me too hard of what happened between me and my (now) ex bsfgusgkhgskhjsgkjhsg. The human condition is to seek out vulnerability, and what we train ourselves to do is to set up protective measures against it so as not to get hurt. People get complicated as FUCK when the feelings are especially strong, since the desire for vulnerability is strong, and to protect yourself the rest of your brain often tries to protect yourself as hard as you can.
Damn.