Seemed like first page or so was wrong/felt weird.
As for the story Idk. Sort of hate it because of the MC immediately from the start. Complains about suicide failing? I doubt it'd fail if you fell from 100 stories BUT alright dude...
I guess I'm more angry with these sort of people. The people who technically get shit on by others thus fuckin up/ruining your life. So the answer is? Suicide. I'm not against that as an answer when life is really shit. I'm sure anyone who's had a really terrible moment or experience has contemplated suicide.
However when it's a very specific person/group/thing that's ruined your life. Why the fuck aren't you killing that first? My girl leaves me, no big deal. She leaves me after stealing my life savings? You bet I'd find her, and the rest isn't suitable to write about.
My boss/company framed me? Yeah if it was a specific person, you bet he'll be having a very tragic painful accident. Company same.