I can definitely relate to the first 17 pages. I haven't really been able to find the passion to do something like some other people can, I have no drive and have a bad habbit of putting things off and procrastinating. It's mostly true about the masturbation too I guess, except I'm not a woman and I'm only 22 so I definitely haven't been doing it for as many years as her. I hope this is better than the prequel, and the mc isn't such a lunatic. Not saying the first one wasn't any good, and as a tragedy it was alright. The ending was satisfying but I was hoping it would have been a more happy ending.
Edit: Just finished reading. It's definitely better than the prequel. The protagonist is a well done yandere (actually the other girl was just crazy and not really a yandere) and all her actions were somewhat realistic. It really does a great job of showing how far people will go and how twisted they will get to persue happiness and desire. The ending was tragic and even more fucked up, I loved it. It's super hard to tell but I'm sure the ghost is an androgynous looking woman. She has eyelashes and lips that are done in the way a female character design would be and has boobs. They're small almost to the point of being flatchested and obscured by the suit, but in certain panels you can tell they're there.