Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 40 - Gears Setting Chaos In Motion

[Wyou]

All that mental gymnastics, lmao. Yami fags on suicide watch.

 

[Shallow]

Alright, had to dive back into this because the Yuu hate felt... seriously off. And yeah, after a re-read, my gut was absolutely right. It's not just that protagonists confessing after drama is common (generally someone confess to the protagonist and the love interest see and we get drama, here was the other way around); it's that the narrative heavily leans on the girls' perspectives, leaving Yuu's internal struggles mostly in the shadows until the very end.

People forget, or maybe as the story doesn't scream it enough from his PoV, but Yuu was crushing on Hikari for AGES. We see this clearly when he tells Yami about Hikari (Chapter 23: "There's someone there I want to catch up to, to stand beside"). His attempt to get into her high school, despite the odds (revealed in Chapters 16 & 17), wasn't a whim; it was a testament to his long-standing, one-sided love. Hikari herself admits internally she would have rejected him flat out if he'd confessed back then (Chapter 17: "The 'manly' me back then, according to her. The me who had never even considered romance. I might not have nodded yes to his confession."). She literally only saw him as a childhood friend, almost a younger brother figure, for the longest time.

Then Yami enters the picture. And let's be brutally honest, based on Yami's own recollections (Chapters 22-30, especially 29 & 30), she was the one who initiated and escalated their physical relationship, used him to cope with her own immense trauma, and then abruptly cut him off without a real explanation, leaving him in the dark. For her to then reappear and, in Chapter 40, unleash that tirade blaming him for not magically finding her or "chasing her enough" despite her being the one to ghost him? That's an incredibly unfair burden to place on anyone, let alone a teenage boy who was clearly just as invested. Of course, he'd be emotionally guarded after an experience like that. It's no wonder he tells Seki (Chapter 12) that his feelings for "someone" (Hikari) existed before he even met Seki, showing his emotional landscape was already complicated.

So, when Hikari finally catches feelings (like the title clearly spells out), Yuu is initially... cautious. That's not him being "indecisive"; that's a kid who's been burned, trying to protect himself. Remember Chapter 1? Hikari leans on his back, and there's no emotional flicker from him mentioned. Fast forward to Chapter 18, same scenario, and he's blushing intensely. That's him responding to Hikari (finally) showing some (albeit incredibly confusing and often demanding) interest. He isn't just "going with any person"; he showed zero romantic interest in Seki or Matsuyama (Chapter 16). His focus has always been narrow.

And let's talk about Hikari's "interest." She herself knows she's a handful (Chapter 19 is a prime example: "Even I can't defend myself today."). The whole festival invitation drama, where she spiraled because he hesitated for a moment? He didn't even say no! He ended up practically begging to go because she made him feel like he'd ruined everything. She repeatedly puts him in situations where he can't win, expecting him to read her mind. How many of us would keep pursuing someone who consistently pushes away or sends such mixed signals? Both Yami and Hikari did this to him in their own ways.

He does try to be open when he feels it's safe. He confessed his feelings of inadequacy to Hikari during their date (Chapter 17), how he always felt he was chasing her shadow, and she interpreted it as him seeing her as a "rival." Then, when he finally gathers the courage to confess his love directly at the festival (Chapters 37-38), a moment that should have been a triumph for both of them, Hikari rejects him (Chapter 38: "But! But! I hate liars!") because of the Yami situation that he was just as blindsided by.

So, why is Yuu getting all this flak? We're seeing the world almost exclusively through the girls' emotionally charged and often unreliable narration. This guy:

1. Loved Hikari from afar for years, got no reciprocation.
2. Got into an intense relationship with Yami, was deeply invested, then got abruptly abandoned and later blamed for her pain.
3. When Hikari finally shows interest, he cautiously opens up again, only to be emotionally manipulated by her mood swings.
4. Gets physically and verbally assaulted by Yami in front of Hikari (Chapter 40).
5. Confesses his long-held love to Hikari, only to be rejected again.

He's not "indecisive"; he's reacting to the emotional chaos these two create around him. He’s the one consistently putting his heart on the line when he feels there's even a sliver of a chance, only to have it crushed. The poor dude just got slapped and thrown to the ground (literally and figuratively) and rejected by the two people he genuinely cared about. Yeah, that's definitely not going to affect him at all, right? The distress is pretty evenly distributed, if not more so on Yuu's side for being the emotional punching bag. Seriously, cut the guy some slack. What would you guys do in his shoes?

I have never seen such a based commenter until I’ve met your

 

[Loliconi]

Dude at this point i hate everyone in this POS manga why the fuck am i still wanting to finish ts

Ok but what is there to hate about Hikari? Her character development has been immaculate this arc. She also is a relatable human being with actual human emotions/emotional range (when compared to her earlier)

Yami is a selfish bipolar (not an excuse tho) psycho schemer and Yuu a deceiving weak pushover loser (I defended him until these chapters)

 

[Cashini]

in the end mc dont have gf..... :v

 

[nogoodsumbeach]

I don't get why you guys keep mentioning the chances. Does he really seem to be a calculating kind of guy to you?
To me it seems like that was all quite spontaneous. He just had a soul-crushing encounter with his ex girlfriend who ended up bidding him farewell. He probably felt like he just had to confess now or it all goes to waste. And it's been 30 minutes since he first learnt about their friendship, so he either confesses or goes full backstory of having an intimate relationship with her best friend.

Not necessarily tbh but Yuu saying how he needs to be 100% sure that Hikari does like him before he confess in chapter 38 makes me think there is also a possibility of him having those thoughts.

Besides Yuu having those kind of thinking doesnt mean the confession to Hikari itself isnt spontaneous imo. Yuu having some type of closure with the very first real relationship he had probably makes him think this is the perfect time to confess to Hikari.
But Yuu hiding the fact that he used to date one of Hikari best friends just makes me think that in his head, it would be bad for his chances had he be upront to Hikari about it.

But yeah idk maybe i am wrong lol

 

[3turtlesinacoat]

For her to then reappear and, in Chapter 40, unleash that tirade blaming him for not magically finding her or "chasing her enough" despite her being the one to ghost him?

cut her some slack ok, she just wanted him to be her manic pixie dream girl

very good summary overall and basically touched on all the points i wanted to say tho, its rare that people in the comment section actually aknowledge hikaris faults (irs probably point of view bias as youve mentioned).

On thing people seem to forget about yuus confession is that its not just some random day, its explicitly a fastival he was invited to by hikari where at the end people confess their crushes and both hikari and yuu planned to confess there. Now, was it unwise still to do it? Probably, even without knowing what hikari knows, but thats besides the point.
Yuu is just now, after years of pining for this woman, getting a chance to actually be with her, to have her actually consider him romanrically, and she basically set the stage for him to start a relationship. It probably feels like a now or never kind of deal for him and he doesnt want to mess it up(even if both doing it and not doing it are "messing it up", unbeknownst to him)

Great chapter, really liking the developments, thanks for the translation!

 

[lolfacesayshi]

Me last chapter:

"why did I still come"

Because deep inside, you know

you a homewrecker

And I'm right.

 

[nogoodsumbeach]

Imo while he's extremely wishy washy like a lot of people point out and I agree it's frustrating (even if I can understand it) I don't think he's a bad person

Him still caring about Yami feels in character to me but not because he's wishy washy, but because he is a nice guy overall

He's a teenager deeling with some issues and not handling is well not a complete dickhead

And just to be clear, not saying this voids him of responsibility of his actions not at ALL just that I can understand and sympathize with what he's facing mentally/emotionally especially given his age the the takeaway from everything shouldn't be that he's a shitty person it's that he needs to get his act together and take responsibility

Oh yeah this has always been my pov on Yuu. He does a lot of stupid stuff but that doesnt mean he is a bad person. He is a generally a good guy but as you said, it doesnt absolve him from some of the thing he does whether he realise it or not.
Him telling the truth to Hikari should be the first step for him to rectify the mistakes he made.

 

[hiridis]

MY GOAT YAMI SENPAI

 

[Valle_reading_manga]

Lmao
I thought this'd be a Yami redemption chapter at the beginning but damn, it sure wasn't.
Just how much does the author hate Yami
And yes, I get Yami's having a miserable time thanks to her parents, but that's no justification for all the nasty things she did to those around her, who actually care for her...

 

[nogoodsumbeach]

I don’t think he has moved in since he wanted to keep in touch with her, said he still cared and generally was still warm and open to her.
I also think the confession to Hikari was a rebound since he didn’t have time to process his emotions from whatever that interaction with Yami was.

I respectfully disagree here. Just because he still care and are generally warm/open to her doesnt mean he is still in love with her. He clearly was hurt from the ghosting but imo he def has moved on.

Besides that rant from Yami plus the kiss is a pretty big suggestion to Yuu that Yami is still in love with him and i would argue if Yuu hasnt moved on he will try to get back with her there and then. But he didnt try to get back with her so yeah thats why i think he has moved on from her.

 

[wozbond]

Ok but what is there to hate about Hikari? Her character development has been immaculate this arc. She also is a relatable human being with actual human emotions/emotional range (when compared to her earlier)

Yami is a selfish bipolar (not an excuse tho) psycho schemer and Yuu a deceiving weak pushover loser (I defended him until these chapters)

If Yuu is a coward for not confessing earlier, then she's one too. Hikari whines about Yuu being oblivious to her signals but doesn't own being oblivious herself for YEARS. Can't have it both ways.

 

[IamaTire]

I am just confused, I will shut down my brain for a sec

 

[jetslose]

wait but the mangadex comments told me yuu was super mega hitler 9000 who fucked yami for 6 days straight while hikari stood in the rain then ran a train on every other girl in the school and created an ubermensch army of yuulings who all went on to gaslight hikari, this just makes him look like an idiot with a psycho ex

 

[LordTartaros]

Absolute cinemass

 

[abxgh]

I need someone to explain to me how Yuu's mind works. So this dude, apparently had always been in love with Hikari before he met Yami. But Yami flirted with him for like, 2 days, dude immediately gave in and willing went to bed with her, despite never attempting to flirt with his crush. Then Yami dumped him after a while and he just came back to crushing on Hikari like nothing happened. Then after he bumped into his ex, he requested to keep contact with her and asked for her number, when he is, seemingly, still into Hikari. What's for? What is his stance in romantic relationship here? Logically speaking, he does have the right to do all those things since he's not offically in a relationship with Hikari. However, every thing he has done contradicted with his personality that were portrayed through manga vision and through Hikari and Yami's perspective. Are you telling me this guy is supposed to be just a "oh he's nice but he's a little bit dense, adorkable guy :3" type of love interest? To me, he just seems like a dude who is confused of knowing what he wants, so he grabbed every cake possible. But hey, he's nice! And since he's nice, it's okay for him to be emotionally stupid and indecisive too, because even if you hurt people you love in the process it's okay too! And he's a nice guy!!

 

[Horridness]

Ngl still gonna hate on Yuu.

 

[Nobi]

Yami really went for the NTR scene on purpose.

 

[Catbowl]

Oh shoot, you are completely right, that those last narration boxes were not Yami thoughts narration but it was a general narration. I only noticed that just now, I will go back and fix the chapter, thanks for pointing it out

Yami says "atashi" in the third-from-last box though, so it should still be her doing the narrating

 

[Beezy]

I need someone to explain to me how Yuu's mind works. So this dude, apparently had always been in love with Hikari before he met Yami. But Yami flirted with him for like, 2 days, dude immediately gave in and willing went to bed with her, despite never attempting to flirt with his crush. Then Yami dumped him after a while and he just came back to crushing on Hikari like nothing happened. Then after he bumped into his ex, he requested to keep contact with her and asked for her number, when he is, seemingly, still into Hikari. What's for? What is his stance in romantic relationship here? Logically speaking, he does have the right to do all those things since he's not offically in a relationship with Hikari. However, every thing he has done contradicted with his personality that were portrayed through manga vision and through Hikari and Yami's perspective. Are you telling me this guy is supposed to be just a "oh he's nice but he's a little bit dense, adorkable guy :3" type of love interest? To me, he just seems like a dude who is confused of knowing what he wants, so he grabbed every cake possible. But hey, he's nice! And since he's nice, it's okay for him to be emotionally stupid and indecisive too, because even if you hurt people you love in the process it's okay too! And he's a nice guy!!

You clearly have never been in a relationship as a kid lol.
He had a one sided love for a girl who he thought was above him. He meets someone who can relate to him at some level. And SHE initiates a sexual relationship. He confuses it as something real and rationalized it as a way to move on.

Then the girl who he got with, randomly just ghosts him. He is confused, hurt , and obviously shuts down.
A year goes by and just when he is finally over it, the childhood crush of his starts showing interest in him. He is cautious because he was hurt before but now believes its the right time to return back to those feelings he had.

Then the girl who ghosted him pops up back in his life by chance and starts hurling the most illogical and random insults his way and he STILL tries to empathize with her. Because he knows she has been through alot. he gets slapped and she forces a kiss on him. He again thrown into complete confusion because he wasnt able to fully get closure until now and she is basically forcing their relationship to end without giving him a chance to say his peace completely.

How none of y'all can even empathize with what he is dealing with and immediately just shit on him and call him an asshole when he is a kid experiencing love for the first time in the most chaotic way possible is beyond me. He is confused, unsure of what to do because he genuinely cares about the 2 girls involved and is fumbling his way through it. He's a fucking kid. Not a grown adult.