Imasara desu ga, Osananajimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimaimashita - Ch. 41 - Everything, Falling Apart

[Kromwulf]

I'm just here to see yami suffer. Nothing more in her can disappoint me further.

 

[Charlieajr]

Fake idgafer I caught you YEARNING

 

[John_Smith10]

Lol. What a bitch

 

[Mineta_The_Grapist]

Yami did nothing wrong.

 

[MasterPannya]

TRUTH NVKE

 

[Novis]

Do it Hikari! Slap her out of her self-loathing supor!!!!

 

[Alzu]

To me and others, it felt more like an after-the-fact narration—like she was recalling what happened later, not actually saying in the moment that she knew Hikari was there.

Would be a bit weird that it would be an after-the-fact narration when every other narration is either present, or in Yami's case, past with zero after-the-fact narration.

 

[razorshaleh]

oh yea, battle of love between girls bitch vs kind girl, who wins later ? only author know

Thanks for translating

 

[schmackinthedack]

Teenagers.

 

[lil_desi17]

 

[HellJester]

Would be a bit weird that it would be an after-the-fact narration when every other narration is either present, or in Yami's case, past with zero after-the-fact narration.

I can't speak for Litreara but I, too, thought it was after-the-fact narration because as much as I dislike Yami I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt that she wouldn't do something so low as to kiss Yuu on purpose when she knew Hikari was watching.

I can't believe she did that and now in this chapter she somehow thinks if she lies out her ass that Hikari and her will magically be friends again.

Hikari's a better person than I am as I'd be slamming Yami's face into some desks right about now.

 

[CChan]

Here comes chaotic comments in 3....2.....1









But for real tho, Yuu is kinda innocent in this matter, literally a victim of circumtances.
I still don't understand why people kept blindly siding with Hikari as if she's the only main protagonist here, both She and Aya are equals.

Ok, he was innocent, it was just easy to blame someone, and he just fit the category, but don't you dare put Hikari in the same category with that bitch.

 

[warm_panties]

HAREM END CONFIRMED

 

[CChan]

Fck off, Yami, I don't need another 30 chapters on why we have to pity you.

 

[Quroh_JG]

That's my girl. Let's go Hikari
Yeah I switched teams. Bleh

 

[Pacarnya_sinka]

Don't worry guys. I still can fix her. I'll fix her. Just gimme some time and i'll get the job done.

 

[Quroh_JG]

Aw for fuck's sake, Yami.
So, Hikari rejected Yuu because (aside from what she said to him) she wants Yami and Yuu to come back together.
You know what? Fair enough. Hikari, an absolute angel, should the two of them be together, and change the fuck out of that school and never see those two again. Or maybe maintain contact with Yuu, that man is not a bad person, just kind of dumb and not that honest

 

[nogoodsumbeach]

Wow… just wow. So Yami really saw Hikari standing at the door and still went ahead and kissed Yuu. I’ve always had one of the lowest possible opinions of Yami, and yet I defended her—because that moment at the end of chapter 40 felt more like an after-the-fact narration than a clear admission that she saw Hikari there. And also because I genuinely didn’t think she was someone capable of doing something like that to her “best friend.” But boy, was I wrong... Yami is just an awful human being. And the things she said to Hikari when Hikari gave her a chance to be honest… wow.

If Hikari ever forgives Yami—first, that would be surreal and hard to believe. And second, I’ll be extremely disappointed in Hikari.

As much as Hikari not forgiving Yami should be the way forward, i just cant see Hikari not forgiving her btw. I have said it before in prev chapter discussion, but i just think Hikari is way too good of a friend and/or human being for her not to forgive Yami lol. Even in this chapter, she still saying to Yami how she needs to be honest with herself and saying all the lying only led to her hurting herself instead.

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Here is an MTL of the novel chapter:

Spoiler: Chapter 41

Episode 41: Everything Falls Apart

Late September, Saturday.
A night ruled by rain and darkness,
a night where it feels like everyone is crying.

Haru: “Aya, what should we do?! Hikari’s gone!”
Haru: “She suddenly snapped, dumped her boyfriend, and stormed out of the gym!”
Yami: “It’s okay, I found her. I’ll take her home. You two go on ahead.”

Yami: “I already let Haru know.”
Hikari: “……”

It was just before 8 p.m., after the after-party had ended.

A frantic LINE message from Haru arrived—not in the usual group chat, maybe because she was being considerate, but sent directly to me. I left the classroom to help search for Hikari, about five minutes ago.

And the moment I opened the door,
and saw her standing there, soaking wet—
that’s when I truly realized the weight of what I had done.

Yami: “Here, dry off properly. You’ll catch a cold.”

Hikari didn’t say a word.
With my towel draped over her head, her face was hidden.
But even without seeing her expression,
I could tell exactly what she was thinking.

That this—
all of this was the consequence of what I had done.
That I hadn’t just hurt Yuu…
I had hurt Hikari too.

When Yuu ran out of this classroom in tears,
I suddenly regained my composure—
and was hit with overwhelming regret.

I had done something I absolutely shouldn’t have.
And worse, Hikari had seen it.

What the hell is wrong with me?
Why did I go through with it,
even after I realized Hikari was right there?

No…
Was it because she was there that I went through with it?
If that’s the case, then seriously… what is wrong with me?

Yami: “I’ll call a taxi once you’ve calmed down. Until then, take your time and rest, okay?”

I could tell how forced and hollow my voice sounded.
Because deep down, I knew—this was all just a lie.
I knew how awful this was.

Everything I’m doing… it’s so disgusting.
I betrayed Hikari,
and I know she knows.
I know she knows—
and yet here I am, still trying to act like her friend.

But… if she’s willing to accept how things are now—
if she’ll pretend nothing happened and keep being my friend…

Then I swear, I’ll stop this.
I’ll pretend nothing ever happened,
I’ll never see Yuu again.

Just like before, I’ll support Hikari’s love.
But I won’t interfere. Not at all.

So please… forgive me, Hikari.

Smile like you always do,
and say, “Let’s go home, Aya-chan,”
just like you always do.

Hikari: “Hey, Aya-chan?”
Yami: “Hmm? What is it?”

But the first words Hikari said since coming in were—

Hikari: “…Have you been in this classroom ever since that kiss…?”

Yami: “…Ah—”

With just that,
she gently but firmly crushed the hope
I had clung to so selfishly.

……

……

Yami: “Uh, ah…”
Hikari: “……”

I don’t know how many seconds passed in that heavy silence.
You always hear people say “a few seconds that felt like years”—
yeah, it was exactly like that.

Yami: “Th-that guy… he’s just…”
Hikari: “Yeah…”

But no matter how long we sat in silence,
nothing was going to change for Hikari.
If I wanted her to be her bright, sunny self again,
I had to do something.

Yami: “He’s… just some old hookup of mine.”

Hikari: “—!?”

…And yet, what the hell is wrong with me today?

Yami: “Remember how I used to talk about all the guys I cycled through last year? He was one of them. We ran into each other by chance and I only just remembered his face.”

Confessing that he was a past hookup
in a dark, empty classroom at night…
And the worst part? It’s all lies.

Yami: “I mean, seriously, I don’t like him or anything! Not now, not ever!”

This is all just total, utter nonsense.

Yami: “I’m really sorry! My bad habit from back then just slipped out again…”

Well… I guess that part’s not a lie.
That old, awful habit—
the “lying bitch” part of me—is definitely rearing its head again.

Yami: “…So please, forgive me, Hikari.”

Even so…
this is all I’ve got left to lean on now.

Because there’s no going back to Yuu.
But with Hikari…
maybe I still have a chance.

If that’s the case,
then why the hell did I do something like that…?

……

……

Hikari: “Hey, Aya-chan.”
Yami: “H-Hikari…?”

After what felt like several years’ worth of silence packed into just a few seconds,
Hikari finally spoke.

Hikari: “I know you're not that kind of person, Aya-chan.”
Yami: “No, that’s not—”
Hikari: “Even before we met, I know you were always a kind girl.”
Yami: “That’s not true…”

Her words sounded so gentle and sincere—
but in reality, Hikari was carefully closing off every possible escape route I had.

Hikari: “So you don’t have to act so guilty. You could just own it… So why are you apologizing so much?”
Yami: “Because… because I messed around with your boyfriend…”
Hikari: “Don’t talk about Ta-kun like that. Don’t make him sound like a joke.”
Yami: “…”

No, this wasn’t gentle anymore.

Hikari: “A guy doesn’t go that far with a girl unless there are real feelings involved.”

Her tone was calm.
Her face still downcast, hidden beneath her hair.

Hikari: “So that means there were real feelings involved… between you and Ta-kun.”
Yami: “There weren’t any!”

And just like that—
I nearly blurted out the wrong answer to a trap question.

Yami: “There weren’t, I’m telling you…”

I almost raised my voice, but held it in, barely.

Yami: “It was just… just fooling around, that’s all…”

What Hikari was trying to confirm,
what she was trying to ask me—
there was no way I could be honest about it.

Hikari: “Why lie…? No… I get it. I know why you’re lying, Aya-chan.”

Even if Hikari already knew.
Even if she saw through everything from the start…

Hikari: “You’re lying for my sake, right? So I don’t get hurt… you’re covering up what really happened between you and him.”
Yami: “I’m not covering anything… He’s nothing special. Just a lame guy, that’s all.”

Even so—
I had no choice but to keep lying.

Yami: “I mean, come on… the only reason you fell for him in the first place was because he got better in bed after sleeping with me, right?”
Hikari: “Wh—?!”

Even if it meant demeaning
the first boy she ever truly loved,
the one she gave her whole heart and body to.

Even if shame and disgust
shook me to my very core…

Yami: “If he’d stayed the clueless virgin he was, you never would’ve even looked his way. He would’ve stayed just some loser.”

But still… I was wrong.
Everything I did—was a mistake.

Yami: “You should be thanking me, honestly…”
Hikari: “Don’t talk down about my childhood friend like that!”

Hikari’s face in front of me was a mess—
rage, sorrow, and confusion swirling together chaotically.

Hikari: “Just stop already… Stop lying like that. Stop hurting yourself, too…”

This might be it.
I might really lose her.
I might be alone again.

Hikari: “The truth is… you still haven’t gotten over Ta-kun, have you?”

What is she even talking about…?
I don’t care about Ta-kun.
The one I care about—the one I know—is Yuu.
Get it right.

No. Wait. Don’t snap at her, damn it.

This is Hikari.
She’s the one who saved me.
She’s my best friend… someone I love so much.

So please, let’s stop this.

I’ll do anything. I’ll beg on my knees, fake-cry if I have to—
I’ll erase everything that happened.
Because I don’t want to lose Hikari too…

Hikari: “You love him, don’t you…?!”
Yami: “If you’re scared of losing him, just tie him down with your body! You idiooooooot!!”

Btw, what website did you use for translating this btw? I always use the translate page feature if i want to read the novel chapter before the translated manga chapter got out but as you can imagine the quality is not as good as this lol

 

[faggegeagegafa]

if nothing else, this manga is always entertaining. Can't wait to see what comes next

 

[nxneil13]

Thx for the TL!

I wonder if People will still insist that Yami did nothing, given that they were willing to blame Yuu for her fuck ups.

yea thats what i'm kinda surprised about. Im fully committed and made it clear the Yuu does not derserve hikari, but i understand why or rather the reasons why people defend him. I get it. I don't get the people defending yami though. I stopped defending her when she tried to do the whole fake sugar daddy setup to hikari. And to yell at hikari to use her body to keep yuu, wow