This went from bad, to worse, but can some please explain how people cannot seemingly exist near someone of the opposite, I've never understood how someone could be like that.
this is coming from a loser here, so i dont know how it will come across for you, but when i am near someone of the opposite sex, i tend to not just freeze, i get so nervous i cant even talk properly, and its probably due to when i was younger, they just do not care to properly interact with someone like me, when in a group setting, they just pretend. i was once abandoned in an eatery and everyone left, even tho i said i was going to the toilet.
i know i should not assume everyone is like that, and i didnt, at first, but when it has happened within different groups, with different people, you start to notice certain things, like how they just dont pay attention even when all the guys do (not out of kindness mind you, my guy friends all genuinely like hanging out with me). but the females, just staredown at their phone when i speak, only looking up after im done.
i dont harbor any resentment mind you, but any interaction i have now starts with fear and i have given up on ever finding a relationship. all i do now is work, exercise, read and pursue hobbies.