Like the raws
Dorothy recently gave an interview about
I See You, Aizawa-san! which I've translated.
Dorothy's tweets on ch35:
The truth is, volume 6 was supposed to be completely different. But when I looked closer at the plans for 34+35 I knew I had to take them seriously... Suddenly the page count was blowing up in my face so volume 6 ends with ch35...
So actually I originally planned for the flashback in 34+35 to be a single chapter. I don't know what I was thinking.
Not the first time this happened - Dorothy also thought ch17+18 could be 1 chapter.
(Coincidentally 34, 35, and 17 are the longest chapters in the manga in that order.)
So we're at the end of volume 6. If the ending's meant to be distant on the horizon, it really feels like the break of day is showing just how much ground there is to cover first. Sometimes you don't realize when writing how demanding even seemingly simple plotlines can be. And this is not a simple manga. Dorothy's expressed some nervousness over reaching this milestone at how daunting it feels - this is supposed to be the answer half so why are there only more questions? But personally I'm thankful the manga's had time to stretch out and breathe. It really is something unique, and with the deliberate foreshadowing it all looks promising from here.
Michi
It's sometimes hard to appreciate how much our understanding of the manga is built on the swampy soil of subtext & speculation. If I tell you the
searcher on p23 is Michi nobody will question it, but that relies on you knowing:
- Michi is one of the few with fuzzy irises
- Michi is certainly the friend Honami made at school
- Michi was likely aware of Honami's haunting
There's always been debate over the nature of their relationship. Did Michi meet Honami as some kind of apprentice exorcist? Or did they simply find each other as friends? Right now it's looking like both. A frantic Michi the night of Honami's death suggests she knew this could happen. Honami's death wasn't immediately publicized so either Michi heard from another source or Honami's absence that night was enough to fear the worst.
But it's clear Michi meant a lot more to Honami.
She was the first true happiness she'd found since Nagi's death. Maybe someone she could just be herself with instead of forever living in Nagi's memory. And that's already heartbreaking when we haven't even landed on the tip of the iceberg of Honami's tragedy yet. Look forward to it!
Tear
Instead this is Tear's tragic flashback. Her painful choice to keep DeLphi's torch burning in Nagi and Honami's memory and her guilt over the danger that put Ange and Non in. Burdened by the knowledge that something beyond reason was happening yet unable to reasonably express it until it was too late. Still, like last chapter, it's her negative traits that stand out to me. Tear's
self-centered and competitive nature (which may have been a coping mechanism from her rough upbringing) that leads her to admit
chasing the stage was one of her main motivations in forcing DeLphi to continue and
burning their dead like fuel to keep the momentum going. Without DeLphi she knew she'd never find stardom again, but only because the burden of loss would overwhelm her if she didn't keep running from it.
Her self-loathing spiral exposes she always blamed herself for her mother's suicide - for how
subtle that was last chapter it really comes in sudden as a hammerblow here. Her confidence, her 'Tear-sama' persona was her armor now made fragile by trauma delivered to those she finally formed real bonds with. If Karasuma hadn't found her when she did that likely would have been the end of Tear-sama. And Tear's willing to deal with this devil if it will help her girls.
Can't deny Karasuma x Tear is endgame
after a meet-cute like that. And in 33 they were fun together. Especially knowing Karasuma immediately became the worst fan and started aggressively hitting on Tear less than an hour after first seeing her. Hopefully this package deal allows us to finally find out Karasuma's deal. Though maybe after a return to the real protagonist for a while. I've been missing Michi. But after this flashback I'm 100% sold on Tear as a main character too.
The Rest
For my unhinged speculation corner: is
the wailing woman even Nagi? Nagi's ghost generally has the same side-ponytail. Perhaps Nagi's design wasn't finalized early on, but here the wailing ghost is consistent with
its appearance in ch14. These
eyes are likely Nagi - they're similar enough to
Nagi's eyes in ch30. But is this
person in the crowd even Nagi? I don't put much stock in this theory but it's something to consider if you want to question everything. And whether Nagi was really capable of rendering Honami's body into something unspeakable, because that says a lot about their relationship.
Speaking of (and to touch on the interview) you can imagine
this scene was gorier at first. But Dorothy decided to leave it to readers' imagination and I think that works much better. I'm a sucker for only getting secondhand accounts of nameless horrors from those who nearly went insane trying to rationalize it. And it's haunting watching the door as realization sinks in Honami is being killed before your eyes and there's nothing anyone can do. These chapters really do drive the tragedy home for a manga that's sidestepped it with a silly ghost until now.
It's impossible to speculate on the nature of Honami's death yet. Why was she falling ill? She didn't exhibit clear signs of possession beyond metaphorically channeling Nagi. Her illness was seemingly provoked by her success and happiness, like Nagi dragging her together to the grave. And we know
Nagi wants Honami fully dead with her. Somehow Honami's ghost is still in between. Why did Honami's killer need to do THAT to her? Why did her body reconstitute after? Was her soul ripped clean and that's how Michi was able to rescue what was left of her? Too many questions.
I'll also iterate that Nagi's condition was described differently to Honami's. Honami was
体調が悪い/physically ill while Nagi was simply
不調/unwell. A more generalized term that makes it unclear if Nagi was suffering physically or mentally, but Dorothy has been consistent with symptoms of ghost sickness. Honami, Kasumi, Ange, and Masaki had coughing fits while Nagi didn't. Again, we don't really know enough yet to draw conclusions. Just something to consider.
- It's hard to make out even before my redrawing made it worse but the right half of 21 looks like an impression of Honami's body with broken limbs and strewn organs.
- With Honami's parents working overseas, maybe she spent more time with Nagi's family than her own and that's why they're basically sisters.
- The random detail of Non's schooling stands out to me. Was she meant to go to Honami and Michi's school? Is she another stay at home student like Masaki? Are we going to get a sudden transfer student style arc? Non is the only one who knows about Michi and Honami's past relationship and Tear will want to keep Non safe. It's inevitable Non and Michi will meet again and it seems to be one of the only ways to move the story forward.
- There's a longer commentary I want to make on the manga synergizing its themes of death and idols with both literal and figurative possessions, curses, hauntings, and that parasocial longing that becomes frayed the longer it goes on which Dorothy described in the interview. But I'd rather save that for a volume recap.
- I'm going to fucking cry when Honami gets to meet Tear again.