I hear you. Well, I'm fairly certain about my orientation being straight, but I do recognize a cute boy when I see one. And as long as everyone involved is reasonably happy why should I complain?
"Ikemen Joshi to Josou Danshi" is a favourite but what did it for me was "
A Maiden in Love with a Maiden Boy", have you read it?
That one is the shit.
Heavy, but great.
Not as heavy as "Senpai ha otokonoko".
And it turns out my orientation is "yes."
I love gender shenanigans. I need to get a few more genders under my belt. Literally and figuratively and as soon as possible.
And as I had to tell myself, it's totally fine to find femboys hot.
If that says something about your orientation, it doesn't matter. Roll with it. Feel free to ignore what it "means".