I think both reflect her. She’s having an inner conflict on the situation.so, should we believe what she thinks or what she does ?
But exclamations are cool ❗ ‼️ ❗ ‼️The Japanese commenters sure are very...emphatic about their opinions regarding this (like damn you think that's enough exclamation marks).
Thanks for the translation (that first comment has similar energy to telling a depressed person to not be sad).