Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu - Ch. 181 - I'm a Piece of Trash

[Polo]

The most forced nothing burger drama ever, perhaps? Although I suppose it's not entirely inaccurate considering they're middle schoolers.

 

[UnderCrow]

Okay, I'm sorry, but this drama is quite exaggerated and a bit unfair to Kyotarou. Apparently, the premise of the conflict is that Ana has been holding back because of Kotarou's studies, and she's felt frustrated at not being able to spend time with him. Kyotarou would then be portrayed as selfish and inconsiderate for not noticing this and prioritizing other things besides his studies when he could be spending more time with Ana. This makes absolutely no sense when you consider that over 70% of the manga is basically Kyotarou prioritizing and taking care of Ana. It also seems they want us to believe that Ana is the only one who has been holding back and enduring things, when Kyotarou has gone through a thousand things, such as keeping their relationship a secret FOR ANA'S SAKE. I remind you that he intentionally suffered public humiliation at that flash mob event to protect Ana's privacy and career. Now they can't portray Kyotarou as inconsiderate for thinking about and putting effort into his future for once. It's not like he wasn't dying to spend time with her. A couple of chapters ago, when he had a break of studies he basically invite her to his house to spend some time alone with her. The story has made it clear on multiple occasions that he's dying to be with her, so I don't think it's fair that they want to portray Kyotarou as an idiot by exaggerating things as if he forgot their anniversary or something. This drama would make much more sense if they simply based it on Ana feeling jealous because Kyotarou went to another girl's house without telling her (as it seemed in the previous chapter). That way, the conflict would make more sense since it would fit well with Ana's possessive nature, and we'd have a middle ground cuz I agree that forgetting to tell his girlfriend he was going to her friend's house was pretty stupid of Ichi, and he certainly deserves to be called an idiot for it. But the way the author is presenting it makes Kyotarou seem inconsiderate, only thinking of himself, when the story so far shows us the complete opposite. I want to clarify that I'm not criticizing Ana. It makes perfect sense that she feels needy for attention and gets a little angry. In fact, she's taking it quite well considering they're just 14-15 year old brats, and at that age any problem feels like the end of the world. My issue stems from the author having Kyou belittle himself by calling himself trash over something so trivial. I mean, the guy basically went to Moeko's house to do his sister a favor; he didn't go there to play games or have fun with anyone.

 

[agz]

Not sure why almost everyone's arguing like it's a single, detached moment behind all of this when it's actually the culmination of basically their whole relationship dynamic so far. Sure they're both partly to blame, but Kyo really has been the driving force in making it what it is.

Even though Yamada values her career, she's always been striving for them to be together more, advancing the relationship and prioritizing it over other things at times. Kyo on the other hand, while a noble idea, has taken the opposite position and denied this believing he's doing her a favor by putting the relationship second, even if he at the core doesn't want to.

Having these numerous situations piled up it's easy to understand why Yamada is genuinely doubting Kyo's commitment and how important their relationship is to him. I think people are being too hard on her and not seeing the bigger picture. The entire point is showing the faults of Kyo only considering what he thinks is best for her/them, not what Yamada wishes for, and because she loves him and knows he has good intentions, she bitterly accepts it nonetheless

It's completely understandable for people to be harsh on Yamada. While he does make mistakes, Kyo has always been completely open to owning up to mistakes personally, as he did so once again. However, Yamada has once again decide to not talk about the issue. Kyo has to yet again figure out what she's thinking while she also rejects his efforts to talk things out.

All these explanations for Yamada's behavior and feelings are all very compelling. But they all amount to jackshit if Yamada never once explains them to the person who needs to actually hear it.

 

[Crystalball]

The author is being funny here, because they are the one always thinking of Kyo, Yamada gets no development or agency.

 

[Churkey]

For once, be earnest in your way of speech.
No need to overthink it, just say what your heart wants to apologize for.
Trust me, it'll work (90% of the time)

 

[MiguelH224]

Yamada was bering a lot because of Ichikawa's studies, but now feels like he was doing other things besides studing, which makes it looks like he has time to do other things but not to spend time with her.

And he didn't put much thought into that either, kid really said "it's not a big deal" like bro, you don't get to decide that

 

[MiguelH224]

The other friends in her case are other girls, not dudes lol, cmon man, you know there's a difference, add in being teenagers and yeah. Even if it wasn't just teenagers can you honestly say you would be 100% fine if your girlfriend went somewhere with two dudes (even if you know them and knew your girl wouldn't cheat) and you had to learn from someone else?

Exactly, he said he had nothing to feel guilty about and yet for some reason he still didn't say shit till it was too late


There was absolutely no reason for him to not tell her shit, Kyo needs to get his shit together, he also needs to learn that just because he himself doesn't see this as a problem, that doesn't mean the same would go for Anna, especially when she's visibly upset

 

[Bdl60]

Man, this fight should be dragged a little longer, Ichi really need to learn how to deal with Yamada, she is basically the one who always has to push, endure and wait for him, he knows that socially speaking he doesn't match Yamada or deserve her (In Ichi logic) so in most time it is his Inferior complex who makes him work harder, it is no a bad thing but people often forget the most important things in this state, the one you love.

 

[Chuito]

Eh, if my girlfriend couldn't meet with me for a long time and the first time she had off was spent with other dudes I might be a bit miffed lol. Plus you gotta remember they're in middle school, heightened emotions and all.

To be fair, even as a grown ass man that wouldve made me pretty damn upset lol.

Like what am I, just an acessory? I aint your phone your forgot at home when going out. Its definitely going to hurt even as an adult.
Hell Ive seen adults handle it way worse

 

[Nyaaa]

Yamada was bering a lot because of Ichikawa's studies, but now feels like he was doing other things besides studing, which makes it looks like he has time to do other things but not to spend time with her.

Bruh

 

[pig_man1209]

Thank you for the TL! Decided to make an account just to show my gratitude to Norio-senpai and all involved for giving us such a great story. I discovered the anime by chance and it's been the highlight of my month finding this and reading everything + extras.

I suspect we may not get a resolution right away, but I have a feeling they'll get some sage advice from the current love success stories in their lives: their parents <3

 

[Yoshitsune]

The other friends in her case are other girls, not dudes lol, cmon man, you know there's a difference, add in being teenagers and yeah. Even if it wasn't just teenagers can you honestly say you would be 100% fine if your girlfriend went somewhere with two dudes (even if you know them and knew your girl wouldn't cheat) and you had to learn from someone else?

Exactly! Not to mention Yamada herself never distanced herself from him even when she's been busy. She always makes time for both her friends and Ichi so it's impossible to judge her by the same standards. Ichi is the one who said they should keep some distance while he studies yet freely hangs out with two girls without her knowledge. Makes it seem like he did have time when he said he didn't,but preferred to spend it with others. I feel like a lot of the people confused about why she's upset have never been in a relationship because this really is a valid reason to be upset 😭.

 

[jubuttib]

"Where you going? This is a perfectly good moment to throw your relationship away!"

 

[Haze123553]

My problem with all this is it's something she agreed to and she understands would be the same the other way around. She's famous and is going to be in a close proximity to other guys all the time why is that any different?

 

[Toadtheloser]

The annoyance you experience over Yamada being pushed to the sidelines mirrors what Yamada is feeling right now. This is why she's mad. She doesn't want to be a supporting cast member in Ichikawa's life. Like any actor out there, she wants top billing.

kino

 

[Buraindo]

oh no I forgot she was a woman! (why do I feel this intense sense of DejaVu?)

 

[monchi]

This might be the first time i've been annoyed by both characters, I wonder how this will resolve itself

 

[rachjumper]

major woman moment

 

[NeloDante]

Alright, I'll go ahead and say it because some people here are already going with "woman moment" and similars: MEN DO THE SAME THING.

You just don't know because you have NOT been on the other side of the relationship, if you are not gay yourself or bi, ask a gay friend - you'll notice that it's the same. I kid you not, I always thought of "woman moment" when in a relationship until I got slapped with the knowledge of men doing the same shit.

 

[nyoron77]

Finally ...time to break up so she can focus with entertainment industry ...her company and manager will totally happy to hear that news so they won't need worry about her scandal with public member

And

I very sure next development is he ended up sick and screwed up his exam

And yamada only know/care after he officially fail

And then either feeling guilty or blaming him about it