Meguru equating sexual desire to depravity is such a bitch thing to do. I get the trauma aspect but it's such weeny behavior. How could you confuse someone who loves you and then call their love fake. She took her trauma out on someone else and hasn't bothered to think about it at all. She traumatized mc in the process and turned her into a, to put it nicely, total freak lol.
Yes, but . . . .
For all Meguru seems to be doing a good job of pretending she's got herself nicely sorted out, it's clearly just an act. The way she was talking here put me in mind of a child - it felt like a child's explanation, backed by a child's understanding, with a veneer of adult language; this is reinforced by the imagery of her lying on her bed surrounded by her stuffed toys, talking to her favourite like it's her best friend. That seems like a sort of dissociative thinking, which isn't uncommon in response to trauma - she's partitioned off that experience and her understanding of it, wrapping it up in a child-like mode of thinking that lets her avoid being hurt by it (at least consciously). The younger Azuki was just unlucky enough to get caught up in the early development of that (in fact, the incident between the two of them may have contributed to it, though Azuki obviously didn't do anything wrong there); this time around she's even more unlucky, since her own trauma from their breakup has just run smack into the dissociative wall that Meguru has built, and in a way that's pretty much shredding the mechanisms
she's developed to cope with her traumatic experiences (messed up and dysfunctional though they may be).
Neither of them really did anything wrong, there was no maliciouis intention involved, no one
wanted to hurt anyone, they both just got unlucky in the way things panned out. It's also pretty obvious that neither of them have been able to address their trauma - in fact, I don't think either of them would even think of themselves as having been traumatised, and without that basic understanding it's hard for them to do anything about it. So, to my mind at least, I'm inclined to see both of them as being victims of trauma, and the destructive or damaging behaviour they're exhibiting as symptoms of that rather than as something that it's reasonable to pass judgement on.
That said, I'm getting vibes from Meguru that make me doubt she'd even contemplate doing anything to address any of this. If that's correct, I don't think it really changes my assessment that she's primarily a victim of trauma and that she shouldn't be judged for that, but at the same time it means she's going to be causing a whole lot of damage to the people around her - not maliciously, but just because of her dysfunctional thinking around what is a pretty critical aspect of human relationships. So it's the kind of situation where an outside observer would be saying "run, girl!" to Azuki, even if they can understand how Meguru got into this state.
