okay this is so fucked up. She likes punpun just because he has a shit life? Like really? So she doesn't want him to be better, is that it? Like this is the opposite of something you would wish for someone you like. Find a better reason to live and love, than sadness. Yaguichi is cool. Instead of dwelling on past he pushed himself instead of crying and overthinking and whatnot, maybe he will even win! While i certainly relate to punpun, I wish I could be like Yaguichi.