I Love Amy - Ch. 39 - Amy's Dream (2)

[artificialicecream]

thank you for the chapter !

 

[mr_swedishfish]

I'm so happy

 

[DoboDoboDobo]

I thought this was going to be a lot of trauma. I'm so glad it turned out to be really sweet. I love BiBi and Amy and I hope they end the series together.

 

[quorramoon]

Not me being shy and giggling over this chapter, thank you for translating!!

 

[recklessribbon]

Thanks for the translation!

 

[BerryBean_Lily]

I'm glad I read this series. The ending was so good and the after stories were satisfying. I wish there were more heart wrenching GL stories like this out there :')

 

[OnlyHereForKurumi]

Lets be honest, out of everyone she's met(All being a degree of insane) bibi really is the best option...For having been born on ultra-nightmare difficulty

 

[white_lilies]

Thanks for the chapter!

Amy work up and choose facts. This whole chapter was like a sugar rush it was so sweet.

 

[IamaTire]

Pieces are getting into place, also Bibi hitting Amy nightmares fit her ao much

 

[foxxreader66]

Note to self and others: If ever in a situation where known yandere invites you over to their house and you decide to say yes and go prepare for death and bring a board game... who knows it may just save your life! .
On another note, I totally called the comparison earlier with

Spoiler: Bloom Into You Vibes

How Amy felt she couldn't be in a relationship/in love with someone who would like her back due to her trauma and aunt's warnings. This is very similar to how Touko Nanami could only love someone who wouldn't love her back.

 

[knight_evangel]

Cute, but they all need therapy tbh

-is my favorite type of manga.

 

[Nekorevenger]

Cute ending is cute

 

[CONBUY]

man what a plot i love it🫡

 

[Tebix]

Btw. The Wallpaper memtioned is the main Characters of the authors new work.

 

[ATT_L]

last few panels got me kicking my feet in the air

FRRRR

 

[delfigamer]

Maaaaan that’s sweet that she has Bibi there to just help deal with her nightmares

If you have troubles with a sleep paralysis demon, just find a stronger demon, but also a cute one, and let them duke it out. You'll still have a demon, but at least now it's cute!

 

[MelonManic]

Dammit no Amy, you deserve all the love and yuri you can aquire
Ah yeah, the beach scene makes a lot more sense now

Damn you trama
Have a nice day though

 

[zairaner]

-is my favorite type of manga.

It's the only type of manga worth reading.

 

[kl-ai]

this is definitely one of my favorite chapters, amy's characterization is so good man 😭😭 her hatred of herself seeps into everything she does and this bit of introspection kind of shines a brighter light on previous chapters: she tells bibi that it's fine if she treats her badly, she tells Camilla that she knows that bibi is a bad person and looks down on her. She thinks she deserves that kind of treatment for "lying" to bibi about her feelings for her....aghhhh

 

[UdenEmpati]

this is definitely one of my favorite chapters, amy's characterization is so good man 😭😭 her hatred of herself seeps into everything she does and this bit of introspection kind of shines a brighter light on previous chapters: she tells bibi that it's fine if she treats her badly, she tells Camilla that she knows that bibi is a bad person and looks down on her. She thinks she deserves that kind of treatment for "lying" to bibi about her feelings for her....aghhhh

It's one of the more believable depictions I've come across for someone with zero sense of self-worth and who actively dislikes themselves/believes themselves worthless.

That simultaneous desire to not disturb/inconvenience/annoy everyone around you, to the point of sabotaging all of your relationships because "I'm not worth their time" that becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy when you act that out, and they get fed up and leave--coupled with an intense craving for validation and affirmation that, the moment it seems like someone is "safe" for you to be around one-sidedly, you cling to them, no matter what they do to you, because you can relish your feelings without worry of reciprocation and thus without concern for "disturbing" them.

It's super well-written here in Amy, and it's also very cohesive across the series thus far (haven't finished it yet, just coming to it well after-the-fact); like with her dream this chapter slotting into her sleepover with Bibi some time ago.
Lots of callbacks to previous chapters that create a complete image of Amy and Bibi's story, and nothing feels wasted or extraneous, and we get teased with details and reveals that have huge impact when it's all finally laid out together (like how her mother tried to kill her, then tried to stop that, and how her own grandmother thought it better if she'd died, and her own aunt stifles her out of fear for her).

I don't have Amy's backstory, but I see some of her sentiments in my younger self. Viciously self-sabotaging, a feeling of utter self-contempt and a certainty of being unworthy of anyone else's time or energy, coupled with a consuming need to please everyone else at the expense of the self.
It's a horrific cycle to find oneself in, because it requires outside help to escape, and the very behavior it manifests invariably pushes almost everyone away who could otherwise try to help.

I did figure it out eventually (for the most part), but I didn't have someone like Bibi.
I'm glad that Amy does.