Probably just actually off yourself so you don't burden existence any longerAs a parent how do you even come back from this? You've effectively killed yourself in front of both of your children.
Cannot be solved without a mediatorEven having watched the anime years ago, I still have to ask myself:
As a parent how do you even come back from this? You've effectively killed yourself in front of both of your children. No matter how this issue is resolved they'll remember this shit for the rest of their lives that deep down you put your own image over their well-being.