Kimi ni Aisarete Itakatta - Ch. 68 - Tear
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Guess I was right about her having PTSD about bullying. I have a feeling the friend group is gonna break then we are gonna have the other plain girl's arc.
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damn Tomita that was AH-COLD BLOOODEEED
So is Tomita's deal that she just falls pretty girls who give her any recognition? I guess that's why she dropped all her nerdy ugly female friends. Has Kanae ever once done anything nice for Tomita? It seems totally one way like Tomita is always looking out for Kanae and Kanae never thinks about Tomita at all. Until this chapter I thought that was because Tomita was deep down quite a nice and caring person but this flashback just makes it seem like she's a doormat who becomes attached to any pretty girl and fixated on doing nice things for them.
my Tomita stock is tumbling.
So is Tomita's deal that she just falls pretty girls who give her any recognition? I guess that's why she dropped all her nerdy ugly female friends. Has Kanae ever once done anything nice for Tomita? It seems totally one way like Tomita is always looking out for Kanae and Kanae never thinks about Tomita at all. Until this chapter I thought that was because Tomita was deep down quite a nice and caring person but this flashback just makes it seem like she's a doormat who becomes attached to any pretty girl and fixated on doing nice things for them.
my Tomita stock is tumbling.
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Damn was eating a sandwich
You really can't feel bad for that girl in those flashbacks considering she bullied Tomita first, especially after breaking off their friendship because Tomita was the loser at the time. Then the situation reversed and now she's getting her just desserts.
Its sad this all happened and its haunting Tomita still. Thats life though. People are cruel... especially kids.
Its sad this all happened and its haunting Tomita still. Thats life though. People are cruel... especially kids.
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Talked herself into not taking the trash out. WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN NEXT
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Final boss, trashcan page vibe.
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Kanae has done plenty for Tomita; she's treated her like a person and a friend.
Tomita, due to her physique and interests, has pretty much always fallen in the role to be the "funny fat girl." Kanae sees her as more than that. Kanae stood up for Tomita when the others in the friend group made fun of her in the early chapters and is actually interested in Tomita's opinions and what she has to say. Thats why Tomita values her and is protective of her now in their friendship.
But because she's never really had a friend like that since minus the nerd who became popular and was a big time bully, Tomita is constantly faced with her guilt and hypocrisy on how she was before truly becoming Kanae's friend as well as seeing a mirror of her low self esteem self except Kanae didn't choose to become a bully to gain favor or rise in the social hierarchy in school
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That being said... never forget that, altho Kanae has never been a bully, she is a person who set up a gang rape 
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That was disgusting, wtf
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Thanks - I have a hard time following who is who and who did what to who 20 chapters ago so I appreciate the breakdown.
Who is that again? The one that got raped or someone else?
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She didn't really bully Tomita, was just being rude few times, like when publicly ignoring her or telling her manga is childish while also trying to secretly make up, which pissed her off. She was hypocritical, and wanting to be friends in secret while publicly disavowing her was rather openly treating Tomita without dignity or sincerity, but nothing she did was in any way or form similar to the actual horrid bullying Tomita did to her.
She was shit friend, not a bully, and she was bullied and practically sexually assaulted (the stolent panties incident) as part of Tomita's bullying. Don't make Tomita into a victim here, that's just revisionist bullshit.
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She shamed her in front of others and being two faced as her current top leader of popular girls seen through and ejected her from the popular girls group, she abandoned her real friend just to fit in and Tomika was getting back for her betrayal she still didn't apologize sincerely.
Still, pretty shitty things Tomika was doing to her friend, it's about time she should step back...
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Tomita was the one who hid cockroaches in Kanae's desk early in the series I think. I guess her bullying via pranking habit started here.
I'm definitely wondering if the ponytail girl is gonna like team up with Rika or something to kickstart Kanae and Hiroshi's big downfall. At this point, they may even get the traumatized bully and maybe Kanae's yandere friend if he's out of jail.
Either way I do hope we see a little more story progression, I am impatient lol
I'm definitely wondering if the ponytail girl is gonna like team up with Rika or something to kickstart Kanae and Hiroshi's big downfall. At this point, they may even get the traumatized bully and maybe Kanae's yandere friend if he's out of jail.
Either way I do hope we see a little more story progression, I am impatient lol
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She only shamed her once, when Tomita came to her with "nerdy" manga in front of popular girls. It was shitty, especially after trying to get back to be friends previous day, and then telling her "stop talking to me", but it was also kinda in self-defense, and laughing at your manga and telling them not to talk to you is in no way comparable to basically sexual assault, or regular and continuous cruel bullying. The other times, she was just pretending she doesn't know Tomita, awful behavior for friend, but not really bullying.
Tomita could always say "fuck this two-faced bitch", ditch her for good and live her school life normally with her other nerd friends. Sure, she would be deeply hurt: say it's like someone dumped by a girl who told him "I was cheating on you the whole time", who then tries to get back with him while still fucking her lover. This guy still wouldn't be right to stalk his awful ex and try to ruin her life - dump her and move on. Meanwhile Akari doesn't really have any choice, her school life is turned into hell, she could be even driven to suicide. And to make it worse, Tomita did all this after Akira already was cast out and bullied, just not yet this badly. She already got her revenge on her shitty former friend by the way of karma, she escalated this to fucking showing her naked to boys just to get popular. This isn't "just desserts" in the slightest, this is fucked up cruelty. I don't get the damage of people who say this or that they thought Tomita was "nice and caring person". It's like saying that the MC's mena girl leader got her just desserts by getting gangraped, and at least there MC had the excuse of defending herself from being actively bullied by the rape victim, unlike Tomita.
Also I wouldn't call "current top leader" as someone who "saw through her", as I understand chapter 50 and 51, they started bullying her because some guy liked her who was fancied by other girl, similar bullshit situation as with the MC of this manga. It was just pure mean girls group bullshit she fell for, because she lacked experience with being in such awful cliques. Don't make the top girl into someone good for this.
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I gotta say, I mostly disagree with everyone else's assessment on who's getting their rightfull comeuppance for sucking on earlier chapters. I don't think anyone in these chapters deserves to get screwed over except Rinko/Riko/The bob hair girl, and another character I'll name later on in this comment.
This manga is very melodramatic, but it is representing how previous mental harm manifests at the faintest touch, be it an insult or perceived behavior, benign as it may be, the reflects upon the aspects of our past and personality we'd rather forget. All these characters lash out on each other on the account of deep-seated issues that, as teenagers, they haven't had the chance to properly address. Not saying they're not wrong when they do so, but that they aren't doing it due to a callous personality or ill-intent, it's just the recourse of action they think they have to protect their damaged psyches.
Again, except for that Rinko tart, she does deserve to get screwed over.
All this being said, there are two other characters who stand out from this description, which are Ichikawa and that blond boy.
Ichikawa got GANG-RAPED for doing superficial bullying that seemed awful in the earlier chapters, but is comparatively mild in light of what every other girl in that gang has been shown to have done in the chapters since, except maybe Ruka.
For all we know she's still attending school, the last place she was seen, and not only have all the other characters moved on without taking any further notice of her, but the story seems to just have dropped her, after suffering the worst violence displayed in this manga so far.
Her sexual assault has not only been dropped as a plot-point, but it seems like it doesn't even reflect upon or is remembered by Kanae. That's the worst and most important thing she's done, and she's forgotten about it, and so far it seems like the author has as well, and wants us to too.
Kanae just casually set up a rape sesh, no biggie. She deserves a Crimson Chin level of fist-delivered justice, yet the manga just has us forget about it, and continues to portray her failings as lying elsewhere. Hell, the plot empathizes with her as often as it doesn't, the author is trying to ingratiate us with her and build up sympathy while she already crossed the moral event horizon over 50 chapters ago, in a story that treated this subject with due seriousness, she'd be irredeemable.
The blond-boy's also in prison without any continuation to his role in the story. At least some readers can take comfort in knowing that he's jailed, whereas no redress or resolution has come for Ichikawa's place in the story, but it's still a lackluster, inconclusive and trite ending.
I don't know if the editor compelled the author to drop the sexual assault shenanigans due to commercial concerns, or if the author just used it as shock value, or just got tired of it, but as this has been a solid manga, if not a little histrionic, the way rape has been treated as forgettable and unworthy of care, forgiveness, healing, or anything at all, is disappointing.
7/10, would recommend.
Edit - Read a bit of the rest of the author's work, whis is all hentai, and I realized that they revel in human misery, fetishistically so. Shouldn't have expect someone like this to really develop upon the nuances of great sexual pain and suffering.
It would beggar belief that this manga managed to strike some emotional chords when penned by this kind of person, but if we put two and two together from the chapter 21 afterword, we can understand that a lot of what these characters are doing, thinking and going through likely relay from the author's own livelihood and experience, not from a study of fellow human behavior or anything empathetic like that.
Edit 2 - Looked the author up on Namu Wiki, got confirmation that indeed these dark themes are based from the author's own personal experience, but also that she's a woman. A woman who sexually enjoys drawing little girls being kidnapped and raped, and doesn't particularly care about sexual assault. Damn dude, no solidarity with her own gender's worst ailments.
This manga is very melodramatic, but it is representing how previous mental harm manifests at the faintest touch, be it an insult or perceived behavior, benign as it may be, the reflects upon the aspects of our past and personality we'd rather forget. All these characters lash out on each other on the account of deep-seated issues that, as teenagers, they haven't had the chance to properly address. Not saying they're not wrong when they do so, but that they aren't doing it due to a callous personality or ill-intent, it's just the recourse of action they think they have to protect their damaged psyches.
Again, except for that Rinko tart, she does deserve to get screwed over.
All this being said, there are two other characters who stand out from this description, which are Ichikawa and that blond boy.
Ichikawa got GANG-RAPED for doing superficial bullying that seemed awful in the earlier chapters, but is comparatively mild in light of what every other girl in that gang has been shown to have done in the chapters since, except maybe Ruka.
For all we know she's still attending school, the last place she was seen, and not only have all the other characters moved on without taking any further notice of her, but the story seems to just have dropped her, after suffering the worst violence displayed in this manga so far.
Her sexual assault has not only been dropped as a plot-point, but it seems like it doesn't even reflect upon or is remembered by Kanae. That's the worst and most important thing she's done, and she's forgotten about it, and so far it seems like the author has as well, and wants us to too.
Kanae just casually set up a rape sesh, no biggie. She deserves a Crimson Chin level of fist-delivered justice, yet the manga just has us forget about it, and continues to portray her failings as lying elsewhere. Hell, the plot empathizes with her as often as it doesn't, the author is trying to ingratiate us with her and build up sympathy while she already crossed the moral event horizon over 50 chapters ago, in a story that treated this subject with due seriousness, she'd be irredeemable.
The blond-boy's also in prison without any continuation to his role in the story. At least some readers can take comfort in knowing that he's jailed, whereas no redress or resolution has come for Ichikawa's place in the story, but it's still a lackluster, inconclusive and trite ending.
I don't know if the editor compelled the author to drop the sexual assault shenanigans due to commercial concerns, or if the author just used it as shock value, or just got tired of it, but as this has been a solid manga, if not a little histrionic, the way rape has been treated as forgettable and unworthy of care, forgiveness, healing, or anything at all, is disappointing.
7/10, would recommend.
Edit - Read a bit of the rest of the author's work, whis is all hentai, and I realized that they revel in human misery, fetishistically so. Shouldn't have expect someone like this to really develop upon the nuances of great sexual pain and suffering.
It would beggar belief that this manga managed to strike some emotional chords when penned by this kind of person, but if we put two and two together from the chapter 21 afterword, we can understand that a lot of what these characters are doing, thinking and going through likely relay from the author's own livelihood and experience, not from a study of fellow human behavior or anything empathetic like that.
Edit 2 - Looked the author up on Namu Wiki, got confirmation that indeed these dark themes are based from the author's own personal experience, but also that she's a woman. A woman who sexually enjoys drawing little girls being kidnapped and raped, and doesn't particularly care about sexual assault. Damn dude, no solidarity with her own gender's worst ailments.
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Wow. Just decided to catch up on a bunch of chapters and it feels like the gang rape will never be addressed and it's a shame. I can't hardly feel any pity for the FMC as she did something unforgivable and it looks like it will be swept under the rug. She and her gang of thugs need to face justice for what they did. But the worse part is as someone already posted the author likes to use stuff like this for shock value which extremely cheapens a story. Stories like Bitter Virgin handled it so much better and that author also went through what the MC did in that story.
