It's a realistic way of seeing life. You can't be too much of anything. If you let people disrespect you over and over with a smile on your face, that's is not a form of strenght, but comformation. Thinking others won't find a way to take advantage of that character flaw is just naive. How can you expect others to respect you since you can't even respect yourself?
it's may be a realistic way of seeing life, but it's not a realistic expectation for teenagers to understand that
how would I even notice it's a character flaw. the naivety doesn't start with thinking no one would take advantage of it, it's 5 steps back up the logic chain where I don't even realize conflict avoidance is a trait that I have
could I push back? could I call then out on it? sure, but it doesn't seem worth the effort to deal with the fallout. so I laugh it off. it's not me thinking it of a strength, it's me mistakenly thinking the status quo is comfy
I don't expect them to respect me for being a doormat. my peers never respected me in the first place, why would they start now? respect seems to be a meaningless currency anyways, I just want things to hurry up and be over so I can go home
I'm not gonna realize how fucked up this all is for another 8 years. it's my first time dealing with depression afterall, and I still don't know that depression is a thing. I'm a naive little teenager that's convinced I'll die before the age of 23
but I'll eventually make it that far and then some. I'll start learning about myself. I'll meet true and loving friends that can teach me to respect myself
and then someday I'll run into some jaded internet stranger getting all preachy about a fictional character who reminds me of my teenage self. they'll insist that too much kindness is weakness and that allowing myself to be disrespected is confirming that they're in the right
something will crack
I'll go on a diatribe
in a sense I'll end up proving them right, but it will feel poetic
so sure, point for you. no more smile. step the fuck off
happy now?
those of us that have gone through suicidal thoughts have dealt with enough shit, we dont need you getting our asses indirectly like this
if whether we agree with your trite is irrelevant, than don't come back, don't hit that reply button. simply come in, leave your opinion, and piss off. if you feel the need to defend that opinion than whether we agree is in fact relevant and maybe you should open your ears before you die on your pathetic hill
ugh, this doesn't even feel cathartic I should've kept the smile on