Kono Koi wo Hoshi ni wa Negawanai - Vol. 4 Ch. 18

[nohugs_ugh]

Guys, I think the mangaka wants me dead.

Jokes aside, I understand both sides. No need to elaborate on Fuyuki because that's just... poor thing. & Eri is definitely denying the possibility that her feelings for Fuyuki might be romantic (since all those ended for her). They both want to stay with each other but this turn of events is just tearing them apart. Then again, this seam has been ripping itself off & all that's left now is a single thread it seems (heh).

Thank you so much for the translation. I look forward to your growth.

 

[Sideris]

Thank you so much for picking this up, i missed this

 

[salthejackman]

Damn did Eri just accidentally belittled and insulted Fuyuki feelings as "THAT feelings", "my feelings are much more than THAT feelinga" 🤡

 

[yungpobo]

Thank you for the translation! I was really looking forward to this!

And nice job btw!

 

[hawrance]

Disagree
Eri is most definitely not aromantic with what we've seen so far. Unless I'm misunderstanding what aro means, but Eri seems to actually like getting in relationship, she just chooses really shitty partners. Which is very common with people, if she was aro, she wouldn't be bothered much about romantic relationships outside maybe thinking she's weird for not wanting to be in one.
There are many people who aren't aro and find it hard to connect with their partners. I mean just look at the history of marriage, it was never really about love until recently. And even then, there are many people who get married for convenience not because they're aro, but it's just easier/expected. Eri is not aro coded at all, or maybe I just don't know what aro means because I feel like it's far more obvious when a character is aro/asexually coded.
If anything, Fuyuki would be considered demiromantic. She's been in love with Eri, her childhood friend, for so long now and has actively refused someone who would be objectively better for her because of her crush on Eri. We know Eri has had a bunch of bad boyfriends, but Fuyuki seemingly has never been in a relationship (that we know of), so I really don't understand how Eri seems to be the aromantic/asexual one here.

Eri is just messy imo, like most humans at that age, she's a mess of hormones and emotions and doesn't really know what she wants regarding Fuyuki. She clearly cherishes Fuyuki, but I think she's struggling with the fact that Fuyuki likes women and the implication that another woman could become closer to Fuyuki than her. Which has been the crux of her jealousy, Eri herself does not know if she likes Fuyuki romantically imo. But she wants to be the most important woman in Fuyuki's life. Hence, why she said she's fine with Fuyuki having a gf literally the day after she kissed her.

She date them because she has trauma about refuse her friend who crush on her and got bully. she got many problem after that so she become yes girl. like she said to Kyo she has no feeling for everyone who confess her at first but she has after date and she will love Kyo later and when her BF did bad thing to Fuyuki. she turn them down. that's mean she doesn't care much about her love relationship or dating. Her opinion about Sex & Kiss also. She did because she though it part of lover.

All she need is beside Fuyuki forever and she doesn't know it's love before senpai come and be her rival who will take her place (no.1 for Fuyuki)

Eri is someone who confused in her feeling with 2 reason
1. Fuyuki is closed to her and did everything for her in position of friend. Eri is ok with that as long as she can stay beside fuyuki and be her no.1.
2. She doesn't weight much for love relationship. That's because SHE HAS FUYUKI WHOM ALWAYS DID EVERYTHING SHE NEED FROM LOVER OR EVEN MORE THAN LOVER.

give her some time and see what happen next. I hope 2 hopeless girls together. Senpai is good but I 'm not sure she love Fuyuki or not. However she is great shipper.


Her context look like she denied because of her confused of feeling.
Her dater all guy.
Fuyuki is her friend for a long time and Eri weigh friendship (only Fuyuki not Kyo) more than love
[That 's because she doesn't know herself, so she though like that] It can happen when you use to be so closed with someone and realize when you gonna lose.
she though Fuyuki and senpai dating, so she MUST be only friend for stay by Fuyuki 's side. she doesn't know Fuyuki's feeling also her real feeling.

 

[KoitoNanami01]

Oh my fucking god eri, both of them need to find a way to agree their feelings to each other is mutual

 

[Ptkyr]

Great job with the scanlation! I was thinking of picking this up as soon as I was done with my school term but you beat me to it. If you somehow see this, please feel free to dm @Ptkyr on discord if you want an editor (native English speaker), I've been keeping up with this series in Japanese for a while now.

 

[Aquarius0225]

Lol that's what you got for not confessing already. But tbh I don't really dislike Fuyuki, unlike Erika from Sankakkei no Kowashi-kata, at least she never blames her own cowardness on Kyou or anyone Eri had dated. I still hopelessly wish Erika would get the ending she deserves because apparently author likes her too much to punish her🙄

 

[Brewers90]

Personally, I think Eri is aromantic or somewhere between there and asexual. Like, she REALLY doesn't connect in a romantic way with anyone and is far more interested in her companionship and closeness with Fuyuki, not necessarily her romantic one - the issue is that in our world, your romantic partner is and SHOULD be your closest person, which she understands and mentions multiple times throughout the series, but is immensely hurt by the distance Fuyuki puts between them as one does when they get a romantic partner. This is completely a completely normal thing to do to respect your partner, but she doesn't know what to do about it, so she lashes out when she sees Fuyuki getting closer and closer in ways she can't (this is why she was so upset by seeing her kissing, a level of closeness she isn't able to reach).

Nah, you're overthinking it. She's just a bit of an airhead and never seriously considered a lesbian relationship until like 5 minutes ago.

 

[EchoGirl]

Thanks, maybe you can talk to the last tl to work together? Unless you can’t get in contact with them

 

[bernkastelmiracle]

Personally, I think Eri is aromantic or somewhere between there and asexual. Like, she REALLY doesn't connect in a romantic way with anyone and is far more interested in her companionship and closeness with Fuyuki, not necessarily her romantic one - the issue is that in our world, your romantic partner is and SHOULD be your closest person, which she understands and mentions multiple times throughout the series, but is immensely hurt by the distance Fuyuki puts between them as one does when they get a romantic partner. This is completely a completely normal thing to do to respect your partner, but she doesn't know what to do about it, so she lashes out when she sees Fuyuki getting closer and closer in ways she can't (this is why she was so upset by seeing her kissing, a level of closeness she isn't able to reach).

Pretty good point. Eri is very serious about friendship being more important to her than romance and like you said she mentions this a lot throughout the manga. "Just because you kissed? Had sex? You're girlfriends? Then what were the last 17 years we spent together for"

She wants to be number 1 but doesn't understand that's what being in a relationship is. The whole putting fuyuki first while dating kyou (or any other relationships she had in the past) was always a terrible idea and bound to only cause pain.

Idk after everything I'm with a lot of other people. I would prefer to see Fuyuki be able to move on. Maybe the senpai and her can grow to love each other in a healthy relationship. This crud with Eri only seems bad. Fuyuki - "Like I thought. We can't understand each other." They just think too differently.

 

[Slogye]

AAAANANNNNNGGGGGGSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTT

 

[hinata2kill]

I hope to god they don’t end up together and she finds a new love with her senpai.

 

[Lulumelone]

I groaned out loud for what felt like an eternity