Koukai no Nai Jinsei wo - Oneshot

[deathpad]

Something broke inside me

 

[nonexistent696969]

based.

 

[kurarara]

I wish nobody cared about me either.

 

[smart_fella255]

lol what a fucking pussy. if i were him i'd curse them.

 

[thedinowarrior]

I'm kinda prepping myself as well. Hardest thing is to disconnect with my niece and nephew, they're still young and innocent, hope i can go without leaving a dark memory. Im really struggling with that. Else? Yeah, i dont have any regrets

Hey, guy from 6 years ago, listen, I love you, remember that

 

[HuHuHi]

Hey, guy from 6 years ago, listen, I love you, remember that

I'm still alive bro, ty. Though still dark and depressed. I am now on the cusp of really struggling to survive. I've been just existing and trying not to end it all for so long, that i lowkey dont even want to work to survive, idk what im doing, im confused af. But still going strong, at least gonna go strong till my parents go on to the afterlife.

 

[thedinowarrior]

I'm still alive bro, ty. Though still dark and depressed. I am now on the cusp of really struggling to survive. I've been just existing and trying not to end it all for so long, that i lowkey dont even want to work to survive, idk what im doing, im confused af. But still going strong, at least gonna go strong till my parents go on to the afterlife.

I hope you get better, but lets not forget, it's been 6 whole years and you're still here, that's a long ass time and you been fightin good. I can't personslly give you advice as I've never experienced this but I hope u know i want u to become a millionaire and get some nice wife and shi. I want you to be so happy that u have like fuckin 10 kids

 

[HuHuHi]

I hope you get better, but lets not forget, it's been 6 whole years and you're still here, that's a long ass time and you been fightin good. I can't personslly give you advice as I've never experienced this but I hope u know i want u to become a millionaire and get some nice wife and shi. I want you to be so happy that u have like fuckin 10 kids

I hope i get better too. It's lowkey scary knowing my single big mood swing can potentially end me. Always at the mercy of myself, trying to appease my own sadness. And it becomes scarier because i know i have to step into the world of paying bills n stuff, and knowing i have more chance of fracturing my fragile self. I am alive because i am a coward, but to get better i need some courage, weird place im in for the past few years. Aiming for that natural death though.

 

[thedinowarrior]

I hope i get better too. It's lowkey scary knowing my single big mood swing can potentially end me. Always at the mercy of myself, trying to appease my own sadness. And it becomes scarier because i know i have to step into the world of paying bills n stuff, and knowing i have more chance of fracturing my fragile self. I am alive because i am a coward, but to get better i need some courage, weird place im in for the past few years. Aiming for that natural death though.

Let's aim for that natural latina wife for you buddy, we gonna get you real set and real happy, trust me, all everyone needs is time and you should give yourself some more of it. And hey listen if you ever need something you can chat with me anytime, just like that guy from 6 yrs ago

 

[BakedBanana]

BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME AS THEY SAY.

 

[arielsawesome]

I'm kinda prepping myself as well. Hardest thing is to disconnect with my niece and nephew, they're still young and innocent, hope i can go without leaving a dark memory. Im really struggling with that. Else? Yeah, i dont have any regrets

My aunt killed herself when I was young. I hope you didn't do the same.

Losing my uncle sucked too in a different way. Because I actually had memories of him. Even if I didn't know him well. I still haven't processed it.

My grandpa died the same year as my uncle. Not from suicide, but I’m sure going through it all again didn't help his heart problems. It must have been especially tough because my uncle was staying with them towards him near the end. Now my grandma has two kids left and an empty home.

 

[HuHuHi]

My aunt killed herself when I was young. I hope you didn't do the same.

Losing my uncle sucked too in a different way. Because I actually had memories of him. Even if I didn't know him well. I still haven't processed it.

My grandpa died the same year as my uncle. Not from suicide, but I’m sure going through it all again didn't help his heart problems. It must have been especially tough because my uncle was staying with them towards him near the end. Now my grandma has two kids left and an empty home.

Yeah man, i'm still alive. I think i've involved myself too much in my nieces' and nephew's lives to go now. I don't want to show them that the easy way out exists. I still have no idea how to carry on though. Worse yet, poopy parts of life is starting to affect me now haha. I will somehow push through. As a master procrastinator, i know it will happen one day, not today though. Maybe gonna try again at life. Might work on myself... who knows, hope I will make it, my future self...