Like, Share & Subscribe - Ch. 44

[MangaDex]

 

[amShepherd]

NGL, I cried a little bit the first time I read Luoluo's last line. As someone who also used to bottle up everything and avoid dealing with it, that hurt.

 

[Yuri_Enjoyer_Deluxe]

I see now! Gram got stroked like a golf club!

It all makes sense now...

Also kids are ruthless, golly... remind me to never spawn 😤

 

[T-sama]

Song Li spoke like someone who never got bullied lol, it's nice that Hu Luoluo understands Chilly position, though it helps that she didn't  really outright betray her as some of us probably expected, what else could she have done after all?

Not to victim blame, but Hu Luoluo should have never touched that watch, good deeds never go unpunished after all, even if she didn't admit stealing it things would probably more or less go the same way.

 

[SrNevik]

Song Li spoke like someone who never got bullied lol, it's nice that Hu Luoluo understands Chilly position, though it helps that she didn't  really outright betray her as some of us probably expected, what else could she have done after all?

Not to victim blame, but Hu Luoluo should have never touched that watch, good deeds never go unpunished after all, even if she didn't admit stealing it things would probably more or less go the same way.

She wasn't a demon for sure but it feels like she betrayed her to me. I think LuoLuo understands why but Chilly even doubled down on it by silently joining in afterwards and that seemed to really affect Song Li. It seems like that's when she fully gave up. With all her crying, she must have bottled it all up.

 

[Andigo]

For what it's worth, even if it doesn't make sense to you personally, the phrase
"you did nothing wrong"
is very powerful for some people with trauma. If you're very close to someone or a caregiver, I highly recommend it, or asking if the person has been told that yet.

 

[himi-cat]

Song Li spoke like someone who never got bullied lol, it's nice that Hu Luoluo understands Chilly position, though it helps that she didn't  really outright betray her as some of us probably expected, what else could she have done after all?

Well, she could have stuck up for her friend to the bitter end . . . .

But it's really not fair to set the bar that high - it takes a hell of a lot of strength to be able to stick to an ethical position like that in the face of a whole lot of negative consequences.

Not to victim blame, but Hu Luoluo should have never touched that watch, good deeds never go unpunished after all, even if she didn't admit stealing it things would probably more or less go the same way.

The best choice she could have made would be to tell the janitor that this watch had been reported stolen, and that he needed to be the one to hand it to the teacher - that would have avoided her getting caught up in any possible consequences. The janitor might even have taken it in hoping for a reward or something like that . . .

But realistically, as someone who didn't actually do anything wrong, it probably didn't occur to her that the teacher would respond that way - I mean, why would it? Unless she'd had to deal with the teacher being actively unfair to her, the default assumption would be that the teachers were reasonably objective - instead, they don't seem to have even considered asking the janitor what happened, and just took the accusations of one set of students against another student at face value.

That's the kind of thing people learn to kind of expect as they grow up, at least as a possibility - LuoLuo was unlucky enough to learn that lesson at age 17 when it contributed to completely throwing her life off course.

For what it's worth, even if it doesn't make sense to you personally, the phrase
"you did nothing wrong"
is very powerful for some people with trauma. If you're very close to someone or a caregiver, I highly recommend it, or asking if the person has been told that yet.

Yeah, it's very easy to end up feeling like you're the one to blame for the bad things that have happened to you, particularly when those bad things are driven by people who are abusing you. A large component of abuse is pushing blame for the abuse on the victim - it's a tool that abusers use to make their victims more compliant and less likely to fight back or seek outside assistance, and driving the victim to internalise the abuser's way of thinking is an extra layer of psychological abuse on top of everything else. A really large part of healing is learning to accept that the abuse is something that someone else chose to do to you - that you weren't asking for it, that the vulnerabilities which made it easier for them to abuse you didn't give you any responsibility for the abuse, that whatever they might have said to you, it wasn't your fault.

Finding someone who'll honestly tell you that you did nothing wrong can be a really amazing feeling. Crying your heart out is a natural response, whether it's sitting in your car talking to a crisis line worker, or sitting on a park bench talking with your not-quite girlfriend . . .

[Edited because my cat hit the submit button before I could finish!]

 

[ThatSoulsGirl]

NGL, I cried a little bit the first time I read Luoluo's last line. As someone who also used to bottle up everything and avoid dealing with it, that hurt.

🫂

 

[CannibalShinobi]

NGL all this over a watch is the most bizarre melodramatic shit I have read in a while. Even the janitor giving it to a student instead of a teacher is just nonsense. Rather have had her actually steal it out of spite than being setup by the most brain dead adults. And all it takes is a little gossip to stroke out grandma and turn her into a resentful abusive bitch? JFC

This is a real low point of this series and can't wait to never hear about this plot point ever again.

 

[nyannibalism]

thanks for the translation!

sometimes all you need to realize everything isnt okay is a shoulder to lean on and then a good cry on that shoulder

 

[TeadyBear123]

Me over here being confused on why the “friend “ aproched her like you betrayed her what are u doing

 

[Colonel-Picquart]

Those hands at the end!

 

[T-sama]

She wasn't a demon for sure but it feels like she betrayed her to me. I think LuoLuo understands why but Chilly even doubled down on it by silently joining in afterwards and that seemed to really affect Song Li. It seems like that's when she fully gave up. With all her crying, she must have bottled it all up.

Oh for sure it was a betrayal, and yeah, Hu Luoluo is definitely written as understanding why Chilly did, neither can really win at that situation, but they didn't realize admiting was the worst choice anyway.

Well, she could have stuck up for her friend to the bitter end . . . .

But it's really not fair to set the bar that high - it takes a hell of a lot of strength to be able to stick to an ethical position like that in the face of a whole lot of negative consequences.

Yeah, Chilly was also used to the bullying, so she also pretty much saw no point in fighting against it either, which is fair, strength wouldn't help in a unwinnable situation after all.

The best choice she could have made would be to tell the janitor that this watch had been reported stolen, and that he needed to be the one to hand it to the teacher - that would have avoided her getting caught up in any possible consequences. The janitor might even have taken it in hoping for a reward or something like that . . .

But realistically, as someone who didn't actually do anything wrong, it probably didn't occur to her that the teacher would respond that way - I mean, why would it? Unless she'd had to deal with the teacher being actively unfair to her, the default assumption would be that the teachers were reasonably objective - instead, they don't seem to have even considered asking the janitor what happened, and just took the accusations of one set of students against another student at face value.

That's the kind of thing people learn to kind of expect as they grow up, at least as a possibility - LuoLuo was unlucky enough to learn that lesson at age 17 when it contributed to completely throwing her life off course.

Yeah, it's very easy to end up feeling like you're the one to blame for the bad things that have happened to you, particularly when those bad things are driven by people who are abusing you. A large component of abuse is pushing blame for the abuse on the victim - it's a tool that abusers use to make their victims more compliant and less likely to fight back or seek outside assistance, and driving the victim to internalise the abuser's way of thinking is an extra layer of psychological abuse on top of everything else. A really large part of healing is learning to accept that the abuse is something that someone else chose to do to you - that you weren't asking for it, that the vulnerabilities which made it easier for them to abuse you didn't give you any responsibility for the abuse, that whatever they might have said to you, it wasn't your fault.

Finding someone who'll honestly tell you that you did nothing wrong can be a really amazing feeling. Crying your heart out is a natural response, whether it's sitting in your car talking to a crisis line worker, or sitting on a park bench talking with your not-quite girlfriend . . .

[Edited because my cat hit the submit button before I could finish!]

Unfortunately good people never realize how being good doesn't get rewarded, only later we realize that no matter how good we are we still get fucked up, Hu Luoluo learned that in the worst way possible.

As for the abuse side of things, I suspect that although she acts all happy and fine, she probably didn't really have anyone to give her support until Song Li showed up, so it makes sense her mentality about everything was so bad, nobody ever tried to convince her otherwise.

 

[Tharkun]

Now give Carrot a gun and you have american schools, bad joke but I couldn't resist.
That's why someone does this horrible things not because of video games or something else. Just be friendly and teach your children some virtues so that these things stay in media.