It’d be interesting to know one way or another if Doyeon was born into the foster/orphanage system; my assumption is that she was which I think helps explain some of her behavior; gets told from a young age that bad kids don’t get adopted, does exactly what she’s told, is probably the nicest kid there and… doesn’t get adopted, year after year, and the older she gets the worse her chances are, is told that god loves her more than anyone yet receives none, and when she finally does get adopted, it’s pretty conspicuously as someone’s replacement and her little sister tells her to her face she wishes she was dead (considering she’s been taking Care of other kids for literally her whole life and being told that if they get into trouble it’s HER fault, this probably stings even harder). I think she desperately does want love, but because of her defense mechanisms shes developed in her life she mistakenly conflates being needed with being loved, which can be a pretty dangerous place to be and even confuses her (jinju needs her, so why does she still love(?) her husband, who isn’t even there for her?) if doing everything she’s done for jinju + finger blasting her into cosmic space dust isn’t enough to get her to love her, then where does that leave Doyeon? She’s shown her antipathy towards Jinjus MIA husband more than anyone else in the story so far which is interesting; I’d be more concerned about her hurting him if he ever shows up again than anyone else
She’s finally has something she wants and it’s not exactly panning out, but she’s squished her real wants and needs for so long that she’s turned into such a diamond of repressed gay catholic anger (relatable ngl) that she comes across as a rubber band ready to snap. It’s hard to tell if she will like, legitimately snap or not though? I don’t think she’s going to harm Jinju but I don’t think she’ll just smile it off this time either; I think she could encourage Jinju to go shelter at the church instead actually since she can’t really control herself with her, or I could be wrong and she does something bad ™️. The fact that she didn’t actually apologize for what happened in the restroom (she just explained her actions as far as I could tell) is probably the most troubling part of the situation so far (that and animals seem to know her vibes are just off some how) and the vibes are definitely off, but I think she would need to be pushed more to like. Really go off I guess
I think it’s kind of interesting Morae seems to make the distinction between someone doing something kind because they truly are kind and someone doing something kind because they’re supposed to. I don’t think it’s a distinction most people really bother to make which is why Doyeon gets along with everyone for the most part and most don’t see her as anything but super nice; does it matter why they do it if the action is kind? Doyeon unnerves her because she can tell that Doyeon just… doesn’t actually like people all that much. Her kindness isn’t completely genuine but more like an. Automated email response lol? It may have started off genuine but over time it just became like a natural defense response. I think that’s why she’s so caught off guard when Doyeon puts her foot down regarding letting Jinju stay; it’s the first time she’s probably seen her get worked up over anything, and she knows how smart and clever Doyeon is and has probably been waiting for Doyeon to ‘snap’ all these years so to speak
Morae’s behavior isn’t justified at all but I do kind of respect how incredibly blunt she is lmao. She’ll fucking let you know if she doesn’t like you. Doyeon won’t.
Okay that’s my wall of text for the week wheEZE
